A Wall Of Promise

I had built myself a firm wall.
Bricked out one by one,
By a promise that stood so tall.

I promised myself I would never love again.
For it can be so sweet at first,
But ends with so much pain.

For so long I had laid out each bricks,
With both hands bleeding from pain.
As old memories deep inside still ticks.

They bring back so much happiness.
Yet their only the ghost of time,
The past that now makes me feel so helpless .

Sadden for I will never again see,
The love of my dreams in my arms.
The way it used to always be.

But the first time you caught my eyes,
Never thought I’d see my walls tremble
As you dug yourself deeper inside.

Out of nowhere there you came.
Ripping my walls apart,
Like a letter caught in the rain.

I never believed in love at first sight.
Till the day my heart came across your beauty,
Which now haunts me each and every night.

You’re always floating in my mind,
You’re all I can think of.
Wishing that you’ll one day be mine.

Still feeling the pain and sorrows I been through,
I wouldn’t mind going through them again.
I’d surrender my heart just to be with you.

To feel the joy and happiness of life,
Knowing there is an angel mending my heart,
From the previous stabs of love’s jagged knife.

With all of this I fell for you,
It will always be hidden inside.
Till you crush my wall’s foundation too

Glad to see my promise still standing tall
But anxious and eager to see it crumble
As I wait the day you finally make the call

Till then I can never tell
If there is any feelings for me
Nor to know if they’re even real

My walls will always be strong and through
It will never be completely brought down
If so, I wish it would only be by you.