The One

the night brings me to a new sorrow
and wondering whats the point of tomorrow
can i just forget all that pain
will it just wash away and make me plain
putting a smile on my face isn't working
it isn't worth it
to live my facade and deny how i feel
it isn't helping
to wonder if what is happening is real
but every day i try to forget
all the things that make me wish i wasn't here
they just won't hold back
and i'm mostly afraid that all of my fear
is leading me to this place of darkness and gray
wishing that all of my emotion would just go away
wishing that everything would change
and hoping for a new kinda of day
the one where everything is better
the one where i can finally forget her
the one where all my troubles and woe are gone
the one where i've learned to move on
the one where people don't try to tell me what i feel
and where all my sorrow has finally healed
waiting for tomorrow looking past today
waiting for tomorrow forgetting everything
trying to hide everything i know
trying so hard to not let it show
trying so hard to wash away my sin
trying so hard to keep tears within
pushing as far forward as i can stand to go
pulling away from my past
pushing as far forward as my heart will allow
pulling away from people and places in my memory