confusion

I dont know why I’m so confused
Others must be so amused
Am I in love or am I not
My heart isn’t just a toy that I bought
Are we friends is that true
I just dont know what to do
Will everything be ok when I leave?
Is the info correct Ill receive
Or is it just a lie
Please tell me the truth, please just try
What has happened to earth?
Teenagers doing drugs or giving birth
What about suicide here and there
Is your life that screwed up that you think nobody will care?
All of this has confused me
But it just isn’t what I see
Why do I cry every night?
It makes me scared, shake with fright
I dont think I care anymore
Whether or not my life is tore
Its my entire fault and I’m to blame
I’m sorry I’m in so much shame
Or maybe I did just heart
And I’m leaving to help others that feel the hate
I’m so confused and there is no cure
It will never end which is my only fear!