The Fourth Leaf

Vacume my hair from the floor
Extract my fist from the wall
Turn the pillow over to the dry side
So I can welcome the next nightmare comfortably
Hearing the words you say over and over again
Inside my mind
As the sweat pours from me
And drowns my soul
Leaving it gasping for air
Teeth grinding through the night
Filling the darkness with a rythym of desperation
I've got nothing in my soul that keeps me strong
Searching my visions for something to help close these open arms
And alter these romantic dreams in my head
I always thought that nothing could touch me
Until you delivered the knock out blow
And now I just stagger
And fall
Making feeble attempts to stand
There aren't even the ropes to help me up
I need help
I need help to see a light
There seems to be nothing but shadows now
And ghosts
Trying to guide my tears to feet that walk away from you
But I just cant seem to get it done
I keep waiting for you to come true
But it is a long hard wait
When you are there "only if"
And I know when the time comes for me to go for real
I will go forever
Love forever/Leave forever
Seems to be the only way
I am "heartcuffed" to the notion
That if it isnt you
Then I just settle
I never thought the day would come when I would settle
True love for the unattainable will do that
I once said that being with you is like feeling the sun on both sides
Bur even sunshine burns if you stay in it too long
I always thought my heart would run infinite for you
You could have always reached inside it and found another beat
Is it time to turn my back on you in peace?
So, like brother to brother, we can measure who is taller now
So hard to have a long distance relationship from three inches away
I dont play "She Loves Me" with three leaf clovers anymore