Thought to Feeling

asorbed in ourselves
asorbed in others
spinning dizzy through misleading existances
The silence is screaming
Sometimes I can't tell if I'm awake or sleeping
nothing feels real
everything is drifitng away from me
my mind is always so full
It makes me want to fall to my knees
What am I to anyone?
What am I to everyone?
I don't know what I am to myself
I don't want you to see the nothing
I don't want you to see what I hide
I cried in the light
Pray for me dear soul...
Pray for you...
Pray for me dear soul..
Pray for you...
I didn't know how to react to the situation
-the pain
For the first time I feel anger
I feel so angry..
At my self
We die a little more each day...
I felt so empty thinking
What have I failed from my own intensions today?
I always wanted to be a better person
-but that had had me strung dry and out
I gave up
and it got worse
and I was drowning
I regret alot of things I did then
I regret alot of things I've done
I feel bad about alot of things I'm doing
I worry now
Set me free...
I don't want to feel this anymore
make it go away
Please, make it stop
I'm begging
I'm thirsty for pleasure
I'm starving for distraction
That's wrong
I sat and watched you quietly sleep
I bent over and kissed your brow when you smiled at me
I like to see you happy and content
I like to see you
Please tell me, it's ok
You can't grasp the star if you don't reach for it
It won't come to you, you have to work for it
I don't have that strength in my body or heart
Please, don't leave
Don't leave me lonely
I withered away
My tender heart is very fragile these days
Please, for a little while hold me?
I'm feeling very tired
In my body, mind, and heart
all the dreams winding through my head-
standing after dusk-
standing alone in the twilight-
no one really knows awake-
no one really knows alive-
the hope of finding something to fill up the hollowness-
the thought of filling up the painful empty
hold me close-
fill me up