o cry’ to die

I've been left alone
o cry' to die
With no one to care for me
NO one to share with me
No one to love me.
They left me alone in dark,
Crying desperately,
When I need them.
And I am left to suffer the pain alone.
I need someone
Some one true and understanding
To share my emotions
Emotions of love
My hurt feelings
To save the tears I shed helplessly
To wake with me on these desert, terrible lanes
Filled with sorrow and grief
To stroll be on the sea shore with me
On the still dark night
The full moon gleaming in the starless sky
Where the furious waves are,
Just like in my desperate heart.
And there we walk by
Hand in hand
Side by side
I want to sink deep in my imaginations and dreams,
To get ride of my sorrow and fear.
He is my imagination ,or dream
Or a lurking shadow,
Or a dark figure
A figure of my wishes
My small pure wishes
Which exist in my mind, whether it's disturbed.
In my heart,
Whether it's broken.
As i feel his existence deep inside me
In the farthest depth of my heart
I came to know that
He is my only ray of hope
He is my only beacon light
He is my survival reason.
He means everything to me.
For in vivid imagination
And is the terrible storm of my emotions
I feel a ray of hope
A surge of determination
It seems far away to reach but still,
Very near to me.

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LiFe
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Life
Life is like a fading flower
It looks so beautiful
It grows so freely
As time passes
The flower gets cold
The flower starts to die
The pedals fall
It crumbles apart
here is nothing left
Just a whole where something beautiful once lived.

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~~~~~Imperfect, monstrous, twisted screw.~~
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Imperfect, monstrous, twisted screw.

Delicate, efficient, handy with you.

Never wanting to seduce, violate, or De-flower.

Indeed the focus is in our last hour.

Craving desire, longing or yearning...

For response or retort your burning.

Fruitless, hopeless, unsuccessful creep.

Solid, uniform, whole, and deep.

Distant haughty rigid upon.

Guarded, reserved, and withdrawn.

A strict person who is loving and kind.

Boot-licker, flatterer, yes-man!

Flat out creep, do you understand?

Analyze, appreciate, pass judgment on.

Remember, we are all one another a pawn...

Pick up the pieces, clear the slate.

Find in yourself a righteous and honourable fate.

One soul within many

Will bring the multitudes together.

Then peace shall truly be attainable.

Working on social interaction,

coupled with community integration.

Having tranquility within and freedom without.

Receiving recognition for helping others.

Finding life informative,

ever-changing and flexible environment.

Where freedom to do what we choose

Makes us whole and happy.

While providing peace of mind.

There are realities in mind

that keep us from believing the truth

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~~So many promises of the life out there~~
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So many promises of the life out there
A life with smiles, a life without despair
So many dreams once held in my heart
Dreams that were broken and torn apart

So many people telling me what it’s like
That everything will be different, I’ll fly like a kite
Once this depressive illness has gone
They tell me that it won’t be too long

So I sit there, listening to their words
Blacking out my pain, my cries unheard
Watching them as they laugh and smile
Dying inside, all the while

Listening to them one by one, as they speak
Whilst a single tear, falls down my cheek
They tell me that things will be all right
They tell me that I can survive this fight

I want to believe them like I did before
But now the pain is too much to endure
Killing me softly, I’m dying inside
Haven’t even got the strength to hide

I sit here; the world continues to turn
Each day fresh pain, a new lesson to learn
Living the same day over again
Everything seems to remain the same

Somehow I don’t think I’m meant for this life
This world is not for me, and all this strife
Is just to show me that I don’t belong
It’s been showing me the signs now for so long

Like a dead flower waiting to bloom
I sit here waiting, crying in my room
It was so long ago that I died inside
I told them I was fine, I know I lied

The truth is, I don’t know if I can live with this strife
How do you bring the dead back to life?
I don’t think I can carry on like this for much longer
My body gets weaker as the pain gets stronger

Unless there’s somebody who can bring back the dead
Who have died alone inside their own head
I think that I’ll always just be this way
Tears and pain, day after day
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