eshajam
Age: 36
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
I'm standing here
Surrounded by everyone
Yet i feel so alone
I pretend to be happy
But I'm really not
They think they understand how i feel
But no one really knows the pain inside
They don't understand why i do the things i do
I'm crying out
But no one hears me
I don't seem to make a sound
I'm reaching for a hand
He takes mine
But then just lets go
No one understands
I only want to be loved
I want someone to hold me close
And never let go
Because i want this pain to go away
This pain of loneliness
eshajam
Age: 36
6332 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
that fight for release
with broken hearts
and wounds that increase
Empty words
that stay within
and stupid lies
that never leave
Shallow love
and worthless deaths
Stupid suicides
that still had faith
You can't create pain
that's something you gain
You can't be defeated
if you were never saved
Listen to the words i wrote
and ask yourself if you still have hope
because being lonely is what you get
when you have forgiven,but it's you they forget*
eshajam
Age: 36
6332 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
All is quiet, but for the constant ticking
of the clock on my wall.
An occasional black bird outside my window
squawks like a warning to all who can hear it.
Time waits for no one.
My spirits are low as I listen to the silence.
No children calling my name to referee in their squabbles,
No pets scratching at the door demanding attention,
No telephone ringing or friends coming to call,
Nothing at all but the ticking of the clock on the wall.
It is dark now and even the birds have gone to bed.
My heart is still heavy with loneliness.
My spirits are still low from sadness,
Yet the clock still ticks and time still passes.
eshajam
Age: 36
6332 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
Save me from the blackest stars,
All I know are blood and scars,
Lost in a world where no one cares,
A broken soul, there's nothing there,
Faded, bruised, a shattered past,
Melt my heart of iron cast,
Til every little piece dissolves,
This is too far, it can't resolve,
afraid to love, afraid to feel,
This is too good, it can't be real,
Losing sight of sanity...
Damn my thoughts of vanity,
Lost in love's divine caress,
Afraid of lies and loneliness,
A broken past that all could see,
A far from perfect, shattered me.
eshajam
Age: 36
6332 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
I sit here on my bed
lost..longing for something..someone to hold me
i feel the tears roll down my eyes..but why
why do i have this feeling...this feeling of emptiness
this feeling of loneliness...
lost without hope..
in a dark tunnel with no shimmer of light
with no way out...
what do i do..who do i call..
NO ONE... I'm all alone
LOST in a world of my own
this world....known to me as loneliness
eshajam
Age: 36
6332 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
I feel like a stray mutt who's out all alone
I feel like an orphan with no place to call my home
I feel like a bird that flew away from its flock
I feel it in my bones I feel it when I walk
I feel it when I'm here by myself; I feel it in the cold
I feel that I'm lonely and how I have no one to hold