YOU LEFT FOR WORK... THE DOOR IS CLOSED AND LOCKED I WATCHED YOU DRIVE AWAY, BUT YOUR SCENT LINGERED... I SHOOK MY HEAD TRYING TO DISLODGE YOUR IMAGE AND TO GET ON WITH MY DAILY CHORES...
'I MISS YOU'...
I MAKE THE BED, OUR BED... WHERE A FEW SHORT HOURS AGO WE HAD LAIN SNUGGLED TOGETHER AS ONE... AND AS I SMOOTHE THE SHEETS, I SEE THE INDENTATIONS FROM YOUR BODY... I LIE DOWN FOR A MOMENT, IN THE PLACE WHERE YOU HAVE LAIN, PUT MY HEAD ON YOUR PILLOW, AND BREATHE IN THE SCENT OF YOU.. I FEEL YOU THERE...
BUT, I ARISE, WITH AN EMPTY FEELING MOVING ON TO THE NEXT CHORE. BUT....
'I MISS YOU'...
I DUST THE MANTLE, AND LIGHT A CANDLE... THE AROMA IMMEDIATELY ASSAILS MY SENSES. I AM HURLED BACK TO OTHER TIMES, WITH FIRE CRACKLING, CANDLES BURNING... BARRY, CELION, FAITH ARE OUR GUESTS.. THEIR SOFT THROBBING MUSIC, PLAYING HAUNTINGLY IN THE BACKGROUND... MY HAND IS FROZEN IN MIDAIR, DUSTING FORGOTTEN AS I AM TRANSENDED BACK TO NIGHTS OF EXQUISTE ESCTASY! OF HEAVENS VISITED, OF STARS TOUCHED, TO FEELINGS NEVER BEFORE FELT!
I MUST MOVE ON, THERE IS MUCH TO DO BUT...
'I MISS YOU'...
I WILL BAKE... AND AS I BAKE COOKIES THAT YOU LOVE SO WELL... THE SMELL OF THEM SIMMERING IN THE OVEN TRIGGERS MEMORYS... SO MANY MEMORIES... OF US, TOASTING EACH OTHER IN THE KITCHEN, LAUGHING, TOUCHING, HUGGING CELEBRATING OUR LOVE... GIDDY WITH THE AWARENESS OF EACH OTHER...
'I MISS YOU'...
YOU CALL, WE SPEAK OF TRIVIAL THINGS, YOU ASK, 'ARE YOU ALRIGHT? YOU SOUND AS IF SOMETHING IS BOTHERING YOU' I DENY, HOW CAN I VOICE IT? YOU ARE BUSY, THERE ISN'T TIME... IT WOULD TAKE A LIFETIME TO EXPRESS... HOW DO I EXPLAIN, THE EMPTYNESS INSIDE, THE YEARNING...
BECAUSE....
'I MISS YOU'...
I COOK, THE SAUCE IS ONE YOU LOVE, I STIR, BUT AS I WATCH THE STEAM ARISE... I PAUSE.. MY MIND DOING TUMBLESAULTS BACK... TO STEAM ARISING... FROM US AND OUR BODIES, AS WE JOIN EACH OTHER, BECOMING ONE.. IN THE THROES OF PASSION..
IT BOILS TO FAST AND I AM BROUGHT BACK TO REALITY... A PLACE WHERE I DO NOT WISH TO BE... AS....
'I MISS YOU'...
I SHOWER, AND AS THE VAPORS REACH OUT FOR THE CEILING.. AND THE MUSIC SOFTLY PLAYS... I THINK OF YOU. I COVER MYSELF IN BUBBLES... SMILING, KNOWING HOW YOU LOVE THEM. BUT A YEARNING OVERTAKES ME.. SO FIERCE THAT IT LEAVES ME WEAK.. AND AS I WRAP MY SELF IN A TOWEL, I AM WISHING IT IS YOUR ARMS INSTEAD! I LAVISH ON ALL MY MANY CREAMS LAYER AFTER LAYER... THEIR FRAGRANCE FILLS THE ROOM.. EACH ONE, INDIVIDUALLY, SOOTHS AND SOFTENS, MY HANDS CARESS PLACES, WHERE YOU LOVE THE SOFTNESS... TOGETHER THEIR MINGLED SCENTS, INTOXIFY! RUSHING THOUGHTS OF US TO MY HEART, WHICH BEATS ERATICLY WITH THE THOUGHT OF YOU..
HERE... NOW.. WITH ME.. TWO BECOMING ONE... YOU MUST SEE...
'I MISS YOU'...
EACH TIME WE ARE APART, IT WRENCHES MY SOUL.. ALTHOUGH I KNOW IT IS ALL REALITYS OF LIFE.. AND ALL NECESSARY... CAN YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT IT DOES? FOR... WE ARE ONE, IN SPIRIT... MIND... AND HEART.. SOULMATES... WHEN WE ARE APART, MY OTHER HALF IS MISSING.. AND I AM NOT COMPLETE, NOT WHOLE...
BUT... THERE IS A KNOCK AT THE DOOR... I AM HANDED FLOWERS.. ROSES, BRILLIANT RED AND SOFT WHITE.. AND NESTLED IN THEIR MIST IS A CARD... 'TO MY SOARING HEART' I PLACE MY FACE SO CLOSE AN INHALE THEIR BEAUTY.. AND TEARS FLOW.. TEARS OF HAPPINESS.. OF YEARNING... OF LOVE... AS THEY SAY TO ME... FROM YOU... 'I MISS YOU!'
MY LOVER, MY BESTEST FRIEND, MY SOULMATE AND MY HEART! FROM MY SOARING HEART
