~Spaces in my Heart~

~Spaces In My Heart~







There are spaces in my heart... ones that no one else can ever fill...
for once you were... and no longer you are... but always you remain there...
in my mind...ever trying to fill the spaces in my heart.


So many times I have thought of you...and yet never would I pick up
the phone ... and even if you were just across the street... I do not think I would venture there ... for when I think of you... I also remember the pain ... the hurt you caused... I try not to ... but it is there ... reminding me ... that loving you cost too great a price.




I think about all the times you made me laugh ... but then I remember
all the times I cried.
I think about all the times we went for walks ... and held hands and
made promises that later were to be broken... I remember how we talked ... and planned tomorrow ... and yet
at all too young an age ... for little did we know ... one does not plan
tomorrow ... one never even really plans today.


I think about all the things we said ... words spoken too hastily ...
and words that plunged too deep into our souls ... so deep that we could not
take them back.


I think about you ... and I think about me ... both have gone on with
their lives ... the path that once merged into one has now become two
separate paths...


And as much as my heart would like to return to the pathway where the
two hearts merged ... my head tells me to keep on walking ... and I know that this is the time I choose to listen to my head and not my heart.



For when I gave you my heart...I gave you a part of my soul... a part
I wonder if I should ever get back ... but I know that it is best for me to
stay on this path ... the one that you are not on ... and the spaces in my
heart ... well, I choose to live with those as well.


I do not walk alone ... there are those that love me ... there are
happy times ... and there are sad times ... but no time has ever touched me the way the walk on that pathway did ... and I choose not to ever be that hurt again. There is so much in life we cannot control ... and yet there are those decisions we make...


But for now ... and forever how long it takes me... I will continue on
this path ... and I will try to only remember the good ... the joys...the
happiness...


I just wanted you to know... I did walk on ... and I have been happy
... and I realize
that in spite of it all... I still remember ... and I think I always will.