2am and i'm still awake
writing this song
if i get it all down on paper
it's no longer inside of me
threatening the life it belongs to
and i feel like i'm naked in front of the crowd
cause these words are my diary
screaming out loud
and i know that you'll use them however you want to.
thoughts If you don't want people to know what's wrong with you, then hide it. And if you're not good at hiding it, then deny it. If you want to survive quit letting everything matter. If you tell yourself that there isn't anything wrong, you'll eventually believe it. If you're not having fun, pretend you are. No matter how much anyone hurts you, don't let them realize it. Instead make them think you're having the time of your life. Don’t ever let yourself think you love someone because it's all a game and you'll end up realizing you never did. Better to just never let your guard down. Don’t let anyone ever get the best of you because NO ONE is worth it. If you feel like quitting, suck it up and keep on going, hopefully one day it'll be worth it. Oh yes and crying will never do anything for you, instead it'll just make you feel worse. Nor will throwing things or screaming; it just makes you look like an idiot. Don’t let yourself or anyone else ever feel sorry for you again. Sad enough, you’ll leave everyone or everyone will leave you in the end. And eventually you'll get used to the fact that YOU screw up everything good in your life. Pessimistic, I know, but hey what else are you going to do? Better to get used to it now.
Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile
The precious moments are all lost in the tide, yeah
They’re swept away and nothing is what is seems
The feeling of belonging to your dreams
sullen and too thin
she starves herself to rid herself of sin
and the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
and she says:
hey baby can you bleed like me?
c'mon baby can you bleed like me
Sometimes you may think
that You bore me
But deep down inside of me
you delight me
you awaken my senses
and bring me to reality
were areal friend
like you waits for me
beside the shore
so
sullen and too thin
she starves herself to rid herself of sin
and the kick is so divine when she sees bones beneath her skin
and she says:
hey baby can you bleed like me?
c'mon baby can you bleed like me
and i don't wanna fall to pieces
i just wanna sit and stare at you
i don't wanna talk about it
and i don't want a conversaation
i just wanna cry infront of you
i don't wanna talk about it
cuz i'mn in love with you
ending whatever it was today.
he's called 4 times
i haven't answered
some reason he doesn't understand the fact that i don't want to talk to him
and i don't know why i do'nt wnat to tlak to him
just dont
doesn't make any senes
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all
Listen lady
your tasty
like candy
and sweet
like a coffee frappucino
I like the way you
are and what you
are...this is what he'll say
i know I can see it in your eyes
someone has broken your lil
heart
has devasted your little soul
has tortured your mind
with nothing but white lies
someone has taken your
lvoe
and twisted it around...
But I want you to know..
Ill never do that
to someone like
you your my tasty candy
your my girl
sweeter
than frappucino
i want to hold your hand
make you udnerstand
your my life
and everything will be alright
your heart is my heart
your soul
is a blessing
your mind is a treasure
and your love is
a pleasure
laid on my life
as I unwine
to be yours
I want you to unwine to be mine
listening 
