Living two lives

okie from a younge age i have had alot to deal with, weather it be from family or the educational side, but i'am going to be 18 soon, and it feels so strange, everything is happening so fast.

i miss my mom and dad loads but i always wonder what they would say if they could see me now, aiming for a degree, acting in short productions soon to go on tour, and maybe even modeling (i've told my friends i am not an idiot to be walking up and down a plank of wood for a living) so no that choice i will rejcet,

i've got a Loving partner who supports me in everything i do, and a flaming smelly stinky agent who keeps threating to send the film to bollywood so i have to work their (no change in hell will you see me doing indian movies, Asian is not cheesey)

but it still is not enough, you guys ever feel like that? like you want more from life, my friends say i'am on a power trip everytime i look at a Ferrari, but if my Beau can get one then why can't i off my own acord?

Or have i just had to much milkshake today (strawberry) my fav???????????? maybe it's the tennis!!!