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eshajam

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Although consumed by fury, you still loved us.
At least that is the knowledge of my heart.
Screaming like a child, you would beat us
Until you snapped, and then the tears would start.
"You know I love you," you would cry, demanding
More of us through tears than with your fist.
And we, through tears, would nod our understanding,
Too bullied in our pain to dare resist.
Yet now that you've been dead for many years,
And I have wandered through my own vast hell,
I see the desperate anguish in your tears
And hope at last that I can love you well.
For only in my love can your love be
The love that once, I think, you had for me.
Posted 25 Jul 2007

Mr Twisty says
nice sharing.
Posted 11 Oct 2007

eshajam says
thanks
Posted 11 Oct 2007

eshajam says
~tasha~ said:

eshajam said:

If it be true that every entrance shadows
somewhere an exit, then it be true that love
is blind. The giving of ourselves up for the
auction of emotions, the owned and owner
mapping the future in the bliss of there
afterglow, penning them in, to the poetry
of joint dreams, where, when they wake
they salute the sun with knowing eyes
but mislead minds. The love they have
is the thawing and freezing of water
in the crack of there passion wall.


I think of things that enter, and see how,
despite , love, taste, or desire, they
always inevitably pass through- like a
circus rolling into town, exciting, thrilling,
pleasuring before rolling on.
The act of love, the eating of food, the
reward of work, all comings of a going.
Last night as I lay like a lost dog denied
of its owners love and trust I whimpered
within- taking note of the clouds-
an advancing arming storming forth
leaving nothing but a smile of thought
and an empty sky.





Posted 11 Oct 2007

Mr Twisty says
welcome ji
Posted 12 Oct 2007

eshajam says
Posted 12 Oct 2007

eshajam says
In the beginning we were full of laughter and cheer,
But now there's only yelling ringing through out my ears,
I wish everyday things were like they used to be,
I still don't get what it is you say you see in me,
You say I'm annoying, that i hurt you and that i make you cry,
So why is it you put up with me even though you say I lie,
I miss the smile you would give when you looked into my eyes,
But now when you look at me all you do is seem to sigh,
i pray everyday that you don't loose your love for me,
And that you'll never loose what it is in me you see,
My biggest fear is to loose you and to be apart,
So you should know that i will always love you with all my heart.
Posted 15 Oct 2007

~tasha~ says
Posted 15 Oct 2007

eshajam says
aregatto
Posted 15 Oct 2007

~tasha~ says
Posted 16 Oct 2007

eshajam said:

In the beginning we were full of laughter and cheer,
But now there's only yelling ringing through out my ears,
I wish everyday things were like they used to be,
I still don't get what it is you say you see in me,
You say I'm annoying, that i hurt you and that i make you cry,
So why is it you put up with me even though you say I lie,
I miss the smile you would give when you looked into my eyes,
But now when you look at me all you do is seem to sigh,
i pray everyday that you don't loose your love for me,
And that you'll never loose what it is in me you see,
My biggest fear is to loose you and to be apart,
So you should know that i will always love you with all my heart.




Posted 16 Oct 2007

Miss mine says
eshajam said:

In the beginning we were full of laughter and cheer,
But now there's only yelling ringing through out my ears,
I wish everyday things were like they used to be,
I still don't get what it is you say you see in me,
You say I'm annoying, that i hurt you and that i make you cry,
So why is it you put up with me even though you say I lie,
I miss the smile you would give when you looked into my eyes,
But now when you look at me all you do is seem to sigh,
i pray everyday that you don't loose your love for me,
And that you'll never loose what it is in me you see,
My biggest fear is to loose you and to be apart,
So you should know that i will always love you with all my heart.



   sweet
Posted 17 Oct 2007

Mr Twisty says
very nice.
Posted 17 Oct 2007

^dewaja^ says
Posted 17 Oct 2007

eshajam says
Posted 17 Oct 2007

eshajam says
need updating
Posted 20 Oct 2007

~tasha~ says
eshajam said:

need updating



yeah jam update now
Posted 21 Oct 2007

^dewaja^ says
AGREE
Posted 21 Oct 2007

eshajam says
right
Posted 21 Oct 2007

eshajam says
Breaking from these chains of hate,
I find some inner strength.
I bring about my common loss and
it begins to grow in length.

That feeling of loneliness,
just tearing at my heart.
As the sadness continues on,
my soul then falls apart.

In pieces I reach for peace,
yet it seems so far away.
Fading in and out of silence,
the depression goes on each day.

The time is drawing closer
and I'm aiming for resort.
To end this total nightmare
which haunts in every sort.

Slipping off the edge of light
I fall back into chains.
Which kept me in this place so long and
caused me so much pain.

I finally realize,
that I'm coming to an end.
The clock begins its final tune and
blackness starts to blend.

This lifeless place
I've found so sad and blue,
now transfuses in my veins.
I'm left with nothing more
than hate and chains of pain.

Cold and dead I find my way but
I'm at a total loss.
That place which held my happiness,
has been left to lay and rot.

This silence which devours me is
turning my soul so black.
Hoping that it goes away,
but it has always come right back.

A dread of blood flows over me,
I see the sands of time.
A tiny grain falls from the top and
I know its one of mine.
Posted 22 Oct 2007

Lashakir says
"GaMon Ko Mujhse Ek Chahat Is Ho Gayi Hai,
Main Udaas Nahi, Udaas Rehne Ki Aadat Is Ho Gayi Hai,

Ye Kaisa Wakt Aya Hai Ke Subah Bhi So Gayi Hai,
Kudrat Se Shayad Roshni Hi Kho Gayi Hia,

Jane Kyon Wo Mujhse Ajnabi As Ho Gaya Hai,
Lagta Hai Aisa Ke Phoolon Se Khushbu Hi Kho Gayi Hia,

Ye Kaisi Hawa Mere JisM Ko Chhu Gayi Hai,
Ukhdi Ukhdi Saans Bhi Be-Rubt Ho Gayi Hai,

Kyon Zindagi Ki Raat Itni Taweel Ho Gayi Hai,
Mujhse Shayad Pyar Ki Bhool Ho Gayi Hai,

Ab To Duniya Bahut Khush Ho Gayi Hai,
Saans To Chal Rahi Hai Lekin Rooh Saath Chhod Gayi Hia...
,,,,,,,,,,,,,LIAQAT ALI SHAKIR
[email protected]
Posted 22 Oct 2007

~tasha~ says
Posted 22 Oct 2007

eshajam says
.....
Posted 22 Oct 2007

eshajam says
Lashakir said:

"GaMon Ko Mujhse Ek Chahat Is Ho Gayi Hai,
Main Udaas Nahi, Udaas Rehne Ki Aadat Is Ho Gayi Hai,

Ye Kaisa Wakt Aya Hai Ke Subah Bhi So Gayi Hai,
Kudrat Se Shayad Roshni Hi Kho Gayi Hia,

Jane Kyon Wo Mujhse Ajnabi As Ho Gaya Hai,
Lagta Hai Aisa Ke Phoolon Se Khushbu Hi Kho Gayi Hia,

Ye Kaisi Hawa Mere JisM Ko Chhu Gayi Hai,
Ukhdi Ukhdi Saans Bhi Be-Rubt Ho Gayi Hai,

Kyon Zindagi Ki Raat Itni Taweel Ho Gayi Hai,
Mujhse Shayad Pyar Ki Bhool Ho Gayi Hai,

Ab To Duniya Bahut Khush Ho Gayi Hai,
Saans To Chal Rahi Hai Lekin Rooh Saath Chhod Gayi Hia...
,,,,,,,,,,,,,LIAQAT ALI SHAKIR
[email protected]



nice....
Posted 22 Oct 2007

eshajam says
Forget About Love, wish I could forget,
Why should I have to feel this, tell me why,
Get on with my life, guess its what I get,
Try to move on, it feels like I don't try.

Hearts weren't meant to break, well tell my heart,
All I want is to be happy thats all,
Depart from this pain, but I can't depart,
Call your name, now I wish I didn't call.

Around me the walls close in, all around
Feel like nothing, nothing is what I feel
Down on my knees, my broken heart sinks down
Steal all my pain away, god please just steal

Above me the ceiling falls from above,
Forget me, I will Forget About Love.



hmmm......
Posted 22 Oct 2007

Lashakir says
eshajam said:

Lashakir said:

"GaMon Ko Mujhse Ek Chahat Is Ho Gayi Hai,
Main Udaas Nahi, Udaas Rehne Ki Aadat Is Ho Gayi Hai,

Ye Kaisa Wakt Aya Hai Ke Subah Bhi So Gayi Hai,
Kudrat Se Shayad Roshni Hi Kho Gayi Hia,

Jane Kyon Wo Mujhse Ajnabi As Ho Gaya Hai,
Lagta Hai Aisa Ke Phoolon Se Khushbu Hi Kho Gayi Hia,

Ye Kaisi Hawa Mere JisM Ko Chhu Gayi Hai,
Ukhdi Ukhdi Saans Bhi Be-Rubt Ho Gayi Hai,

Kyon Zindagi Ki Raat Itni Taweel Ho Gayi Hai,
Mujhse Shayad Pyar Ki Bhool Ho Gayi Hai,

Ab To Duniya Bahut Khush Ho Gayi Hai,
Saans To Chal Rahi Hai Lekin Rooh Saath Chhod Gayi Hia...
,,,,,,,,,,,,,LIAQAT ALI SHAKIR
[email protected]



nice....
SHUKRIA ESHAJAM JII....AAP NAIN PASANDIDGI KA IZHAR KIA...THANKS
Posted 23 Oct 2007

~tasha~ says
good work
Posted 23 Oct 2007

Lashakir says
raat yun dil main teri khoui huwi yaad aai

jaisay veraanay main chupkay say bahaar aa jay
jaisay sehraoun main holay say chalay bad-e-naseem


jaisay bemaar ko be-wejha qarar aa jay.....
Posted 23 Oct 2007

eshajam says
~tasha~ said:

good work



it was 4 me or Lashakir
Posted 23 Oct 2007

eshajam says
Lashakir said:

raat yun dil main teri khoui huwi yaad aai

jaisay veraanay main chupkay say bahaar aa jay
jaisay sehraoun main holay say chalay bad-e-naseem


jaisay bemaar ko be-wejha qarar aa jay.....



wah g wah

buhoth khub
Posted 23 Oct 2007

Lashakir says
Uss k honton ka tabbasum rahay qaim 'YA RUB'...
Uss k 'JEVAN' main khushion ka basera kar day...

Tu mere karb ki raaton ko bhalay khatam na kar...
Uss ki har sham k aakhir main SAWERA kar day...

Uss k 'DIL' k kisi konay main jaga dey mujh ko..
Uss ki 'AAANKHON' ko meray sapnon say khera kar day...

Yeh meray dil ki dua hai 'MERY MOLA SUN LAY'...
Saaaari dunia say chupaa kar 'USSAY MERA KAR DEY'....

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Posted 04 Nov 2007

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