There are no answers for my questions No sedative To ease my suffering She whispers in my ear Telling me There is no hope, No love Just the lust And all the evil that follows She binds my hands Bites into my flesh And bleeds me slowly So that I feel everything But I can no longer tell if this is real Once she told me it was only as real As I made it But now I think this is not just confuse only me The joke of it all She whispers more to me Knowing I am too weak To resist And foolish enough to believe all Is she real Or just another fantasy Sent by demons to torment To tell the truth I no longer care For I can feel nothing anymore The world has grown cold And the only sensations that come Are from the pain she deals to me Bleed me slowly So I can feel everything
eshajam
Age: 37
6369 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
Heartbreak is an odd kind of pain, coz you're not dying, you're not even sick. you feel perfectly fine.. yet inside, where you;re heart used to be, you hurt so much that you can't breathe, you can't sleep & you can't stop the tears from falling.. you may eat 2 much, you may not eat at all, nonsmokers light up, nondrinkers find a bar. a broken heart is the world's greatest equalizer, coz it can bring even the strongest man to his knees.
eshajam
Age: 37
6369 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
When we were together You said we'd always last When you would hold me I though "Our love can never pass" But now I see you've left me with a tear in my eye Then I think when you told me You'd never make me cry. All the times we had together I was sure we'd last for ever But now I see it was all a lie, Now all I do is think of you and cry. You hurt me so bad You can't understand I can't love no body Wishing you were still my girl It hurts so bad to think you once cared Then thinking of all the things that we once shared. I will always love you more than I can say Even if you say you hate me, just about every day. I miss you oh so much, and I try to cope, But with out you here I really don't have much hope. So I try to talk to you, even though you say to go away, Just know I'll still be loving you more and more each day they say love is a pain, but soon coz of this pain i'll gain...
~tasha~
Age: 124
6597 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
Points: 0
Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
I waited for you years and years and years ago if you would come, I would not know until the years have passed away but there I’d waited in dismay. To be with you all my life I risked my heart and pain and strife. It hurt too much, I loved you so I wish I was able to let you know how much I cared, how much you meant to me but now I know that it may never be because now you’re gone and probably forgot me as the years pasted on. I wish it were different I wish you were here so I could say how much I love you, how much my feelings still kept this way I know that we were meant to be one forever despite the years that were lost one day we’ll be together
~tasha~
Age: 124
6597 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
Points: 0
Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
I worry About many things A teenager always has a full mind But lately All that’s on my mind Is you. I worry My heart is filled It overflows Spills out of my pores I cannot contain My grief, my apprehension My distress Overwhelming. I worry About your state of mind Your mental health And how much pain you seem to carry Like slabs of solemn rock Fitted to your back You clutch to them It is your strength yet your weakness Ultimate downfall I wish you would just let me in Let me take that weight of your back I would suffer through endless agony All that pain Any pain Countless beatings, deaths, unimaginable anguish Just Let me Let me dammit Don’t you realize I would Strap all of your baggage Emotional, physiological, physical Without a second thought Nothing would be worth more to me Then to see you happy Carefree for once But no one ever has They might think they have But I know better You don’t let anyone though But you break their layers Without them even noticing And you fix and fix Selflessly You care You care too much. And I worry Perhaps I care too much too But I cannot fight my feelings While you thrust your heart Into everything you do It is a miracle A miracle that you don’t crack and explode Under all of that pressure The impending strain On your soul Your existence. I worry. I worry that you do too much That you care for everyone Everyone but yourself. I worry Cause you won’t let anyone in Through your layers and layers. I worry That one day you will just break And I won’t be there to catch you As you start your emotional plunge. And I worry That I will be hopeless Completely and utterly hopeless When you need me the most In your own dark pit A pit of despair. Why? Why won’t you let me in? I can’t understand All I want Is your smile On your face Even if I can’t personally put it there I want you to know I am here for you Just let me in Please, Please. Let me in Before it is too late For everyone.
~tasha~
Age: 124
6597 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
Points: 0
Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
The past is the future The future is the past I want to change I have to change My life has had many problems Problems I can't handle Life is full of so many obstacles Obstacles that get in my way My way may not be the right way The right way may be wrong Wrong turns Dead ends No answers Who can I talk to Where can I go to get away Away from the pain Away from the issues that are driving me insane. This is the year for new beginnings I did change I had to change Changed to find out life has obstacles you learn from everyday My past is my future I learn from it My future is my past I grow from it
Fairl_Girl
Age: 124
7561 days old here
Total Posts: 26920
Points: 0
Location:
Pakistan, Pakistan
~tasha~ said:
I waited for you years and years and years ago if you would come, I would not know until the years have passed away but there I’d waited in dismay. To be with you all my life I risked my heart and pain and strife. It hurt too much, I loved you so I wish I was able to let you know how much I cared, how much you meant to me but now I know that it may never be because now you’re gone and probably forgot me as the years pasted on. I wish it were different I wish you were here so I could say how much I love you, how much my feelings still kept this way I know that we were meant to be one forever despite the years that were lost one day we’ll be together
