eshajam said:

Although consumed by fury, you still loved us.
At least that is the knowledge of my heart.
Screaming like a child, you would beat us
Until you snapped, and then the tears would start.
"You know I love you," you would cry, demanding
More of us through tears than with your fist.
And we, through tears, would nod our understanding,
Too bullied in our pain to dare resist.
Yet now that you've been dead for many years,
And I have wandered through my own vast hell,
I see the desperate anguish in your tears
And hope at last that I can love you well.
For only in my love can your love be
Nice
The love that once, I think, you had for me.

eshajam said:

Vulnerability is not a friend of mine
Although we’ve made acquaintance
I don’t like not knowing fate
But our life is worth the chance
When I was younger I did not
understand the words you speak
I could not say that I do even now
But I’ve taken your love blindly
Given up second guessing and pondering how
I know what I feel inside of me
When I see you after a lonely night
Or when you say the perfect thing
When the timing is just right
I love you more than anything
I’ve always known you were a part of me
We have a love that’s hard to hide
It’s crystal clear for everyone to see.
This love is for forever
My heart will always belong to you
And my spirits lift because I can let go
Of the mistrust you seem to have crashed into..

~tasha~ said:

I am the words I beseech in darkness,
the thoughts ingrained within.
A lost soul dwelling amid life's starkness,
in words I write herein.

I am a lover wanting to be held,
longing for your embrace.
Broken inside by feelings compelled,
show on tear stained face.

I am the breeze that whispers and wanders,
the touch upon your cheek.
In quietude your thought that ponders,
the sunshine that you seek.

I am but a woman with challenges met,
that life has thrown at me.
But they have not got the best of me yet,
God lifts my burdens free.

I am the distant star gleaming brighty,
shower love the night through.
Within my dreams, you come to me softly,
I am in love with you.

eshajam said:

.......CARE! The world need you!.......

I look out side and see rain
I look out side and see tears
people are crying
the world is crying
we are ruining everything!

People fight as they always have
And I belive that is okay
But not when they drag other people whit them in to it
Not when they hurt others who havent done anything
Not when they are the one who get power and responsibility
Not when they are the one hurting others

I look out side and see pain
a man have set fire to a building and killed 3 people
a child have drowned his best friend in a lake
a wife have killed her bellowed husband
why does those kind of thing happened?
Ill tell you why.. people are evil

They dont care for other than them self
They dont help others if they dont get any thing back
They dont want to see what they are making the world in to
All they want to see, feel and hear is that everything is okay
That someone else will fix the things that is wrong in this world

But there is none
None to help
None to care
None to listen
None to make this world a better place
We are all domed.. if we dont start to care any time soon will it be to late
For the people who needs care to day maybe the people who will show you
Care to morrow.. keep that in mind.. smile, be happy and help others even though you dont get anything back for it
Caus next time is it maybe you who need help...

eshajam said:

I'm sitting here without you
Becoming lost in thought
I wonder if you mean this love
If this is truly what you've sought.
I know I can be a let down
And I know I get hard to be around
I know that you'll love me despite that
But in these doubts, I start to drown.
Am I really a failure to you?
Do you mean all those angry words you say?
I'm afraid my inadequacy will end us
I don't want us to turn out that way.
Circles they ring around me
Words flowing through my mind
I'm afraid if I wait too long to
Confront this
You may decide to leave me behind.
I couldn't live my life without you
It's just as much yours as mine.
I have to find a way to purge these words,
With my heart out on the line.

~tasha~ said:

My mind is sad
Because others have fathomed my mind.
I am sad
Because I have not yet uncovered myself.
My heart is sad
Sadness, sadness, sadness reigns supreme!

~tasha~ said:

I feel you in the morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make

You'd been around forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love, I need not look

Cause by what you bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever and ever

Although you've left
And now walk above
I'm never alone
I'm wrapped in your love

Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on
What was taught to me, will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me even after you've gone