i know all these things k u feel light etc etc ....

but the thing is k app ko opportunity bhe tu millni chahyee ... like my best frnd is not in my college.. and we dont get much opportunity to talk wid each other ..

and its not only about getting opportunity.. i do at times have plenty of time but still i m unable to express my feelings through words...

thnx sunshine but i think i m really expressive in writing things .. nd i do share my problems here, whenever i have one!

(awww phliend is here
AsSalaam o aleikum,,kaisi ho aap?? )


hmm..yeah kuch logon kay sath hota hay aisa,
aap ko try karna parhay ga bas,
slowly slowly koshish karain,
thora time lagay ga but yah koi itna mushkil nahin hay
start main choti choti batain share karain,
ahista ahista adat badal jaey gi, InshALLAH

not at all sunshine .. i have loads of frnds ..

Walikum salam Aaesra..
good to see u ..

actually recently i was sharing an incident wid my frnds.. ab frnds mein tu hansi mazaak chalta hai .. they started making fun of me .. mainey bht he stupid harkat ki thee .. but still i didnt liked being laughed at .. main bht he sensitive hon..

i do have some frnds jin say main thora bht share ker laiti hon .. laiken main sab k sath expressive hona chahti hon ...

aur kabhe kabhe main itna plan kerti hon k ye keh don ge, wo keh don ge laiken jab wo samnay hon tu kaha he nahi jata .. aur ye case koi specific person k saath nahi hai .. even apnay abbu ko bhe kabhe kabhe main keh nahi pati jo kehna chahti hon ..

the way people react is the thing which matters to me..

ab serious frnds mujhsay kaafi dur rehti hein .. i mean they are not wid me at college .. tu wo opportunity wali baat ajati hai k mulaqat ho tu detail mein baat ho ..

jo log pass hein .. un say kis tarhaan express karon?

hmmm lack of confidence
insecurity

par koi fark nahi parta
keep one thing in mind,, hum sab log iss muamle mei aik se hein,, sab aik doosre se darte hein,, sab insecure mehsoos karte hein
iss liye jo bolna hai bol do,, koi hansta hai to koi baat nahi aap bhi uss k saath mil k hans lo,, atleast rone se to behtar hai na

remember one thing,, chahe kuch bhi ho
--> NO REGRETS

i think its ur high self dependence thats stops u frm expressing ur feelings.
u dnt wanna let ur self feel that u cant fight ur feelings.?
write a diary, listen to music.
If u cant b with frnds , then do somethin that makes u forget ur worries.
May Allah b with u.

haan ashi theek kahti hain

waisay apni bat bolongi kay mairay sath is ka ult hota hay
main to kisi ko kuch bi bol daiti hon, koi acha lagay to is ka izhar,bura lagay to wo bi...but is wajah say aksar kafi nuksan bi uthana parhta hay
but main to aik nr ki dheet hon,kuch khas fark nahin parhta kay kisi nay kiya kaha hay,
han agar bad main apni ghalti feel ho to,sorry bol daiti hon.
waisay faida ho ya nuksan, jo bat kahni ho wo kah kar hi rahti hon :D
apni feelings par control nahin hay yarr

but agar aap mairay jaisi banain gien to aap ko badtamez bi bola ja sakta hay (jaisay kay mujhe boltay hain sab )

badtmmeeeeeez kahin ki

nahi mujhay badtameez bhe nahi kehwalana..

actually mujhay pata hota hai mujhay kia kehna hai.. infact kabhe kabhe tu pori conversation pehlay say he soch laiti hon .. laiken phir kuch nahi kaha jata ..

thora thora i have started to speak up.. phada ho jata hai ... is liay i thought its better to keep my thinking wid me ..

aur rahe baat diary likhnay ki .. i think dairy likhnay say main aur ziada introvert ho gaiye .. coz i knew k koi na bhe ho tu dairy hai meri ... per wo mujhay reply tu nahi ker sakti .. na koi mashwara day sakti hai .. i think her insan ko zarorat hoti hai k koi usay sunay .. aur jab meray pas sunnay walay hotay hein .. tu mujhsay bola nahi jata..

mujay ziada argue kerna pasand nahi hai .. aur her kisi k saath thinking tu match kerti nahi .. since i m very peace-loving.. tu thats y i never enter into arguments..

my frnds say k if i keep this habit of mine tu i wud be a really gud bahu ..   

but jokes aside .. i really want to be expressive..

Ashi:

remember one thing,, chahe kuch bhi ho
--> NO REGRETS

i dunt want to have any regrets na .. liaken kabhe kabhe i realize k i shud have told the other person wht i m going through... main khud kyun suffer karon!!

laiken aisay hota nahi hai..

friend 16 u can always share wid me esp cos v dun meet dat often bt ab tu net k thru baat kar sakte hain...ab no tension kyun???