Fairl_Girl
Age: 125
7610 days old here
Total Posts: 26920
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Location:
Pakistan, Pakistan
Can you remember the first time we met? Can you remember how your heart started pounding in your breast? Can you remember the first love-letter I wrote? Can you remember our very first kiss? Can you remember the day that you left me? Can you still feel your heart bleeding? Can you remember all the laughs that we had? Can you remember our secret dates...our secret meeting place? Can you remember seeing me again after such a long time? Can you remember losing me again? Can you remember the night I got on that plane and flew out of your life forever? Can you remember your first long-distance phone-bill? Can you remember the feeling of your hands trembling every time you opened your Post box?
Baby, I remember every second...every tear, every smile of you back then as a 16 year old kid.. I remember your cheeky grins. Your laugh is the last thing I hear at night before I fall asleep...and your face is the first thing I think of in the morning. We have been apart too long to ever be together again...because our love is too powerful, too intensive..too dangerous! The mere thought of seeing you, alone from the distance, sends shivers down my spine and turns my head spinning... You were always there for me, and you were my best friend, my boyfriend, my "big-brother"...you were my life.. I swore to you that I would never ever love anyone again as much as I loved you, the pain would be unbearable, the fear would tear me apart, the fear of losing again... I will always love you, too much.. I will always remember the words you had told me, I will always think of you in every moment I live, I will always remember you for the good, & pray that God will forgive the bad, What you don't understand? 10 Years of my life was dedicated to loving you...to living you... You were the scent in my clothing, the smile on my lips,the daydream in my head during class, the sparkle in my eyes... But you were also the Sword that ripped my heart into pieces, the thunder clouds covering my sun, the pain pressuring against my chest - taking away my breath.. You were my first love and you will be my last love,and that's why I have to let go...before you break a heart that took too long to mend. Just love me...love that 16 year old girl, but promise you'll forget me...forget the women that I am today Yours in this life,& the life hereafter..
Fairl_Girl
Age: 125
7610 days old here
Total Posts: 26920
Points: 0
Location:
Pakistan, Pakistan
Magic of Love
Some people said Falling in love on the Internet is ridiculous People were just fooling around People were just having fun
But it fades away Since I met you
Once in December A friendship is found We email and chat very often Until we realized that there’s other way To keep in touch with each other
From then on, We used to send letters We used to send SmS And so our bonding get stronger Little by little I learned to like you You always make me happy We talked a lot of things We feel comfortable with each other
But once in February Magic was felt A love was made A love that I never expected A love that I never felt before
Being involve in a Long-distance relationship is difficult I thought to myself its silly I mustn’t fallow my heartfelt I’m afraid to fall, I’m afraid to be hurt
It made me happy when you told me you Love me But I can’t hide my feelings So I told you I love you And then we tried to have Virtual Relationship
I know time is not enough For us to tell that we are going to be Husband and wife For in the first place, we never met in person, We didn’t see each other in person And we are too far from each other But I know for sure that you are the one I’ve been looking for The one who I want to spend the rest of my life
I know we met on the chat for only Couple of months But I am sure about my feelings I realized that there is something about you Which a lot of guys don’t have
I just wanted you to know My world revolves you You make my day complete You inspired me You are my life You are Me!
Fairl_Girl
Age: 125
7610 days old here
Total Posts: 26920
Points: 0
Location:
Pakistan, Pakistan
My Broken Heart
I told myself that God had forgotten me... After a lifetime of pain and nights filled with loneliness He had no one for me to love Just move on, it will be ok. And then I met you.
I knew it was all wrong, But I looked into your beautiful eyes... and I let you in... Into my heart, into my family, into my home. You gave me hope when I had none. A second chance. You took my hand and let me think about A life with a man who would love me and my children...
Fantasy... or foolishness?
It is so rare to find someone to connect with, Someone to open up your heart to When it finally, if ever, comes along, it should be cherished and prized. Love so sweet that the night is not long enough for all the kisses to be shared. I always said that after a lifetime of looking I would know him as soon as I met him. I would know he was the one. Hold on tight and don’t him let go.
But then, You learned you were not free... To love, to share, to plan, to care. With each day you pulled farther away. Your heart is now hard and filled with pain. You shut me out, pushed me away.
WAIT! Come back! Please don’t leave me... Hold me, kiss me, tell me it will be ok, what about the dreams we talked about? The love we shared? The love still to be had and made? Please don’t go... please.
This pain is just too much to bear. My heart aches for you. I’m begging, pleading for just a small amount of your time. To connect with you once more. When did I become this way? Why did I become this way? Surely being alone is less painful than the humiliation of crying for a man who doesn’t want me.
Why God why? Haven’t I cried enough in my lifetime? What transgression am I paying for? How could you be so cruel? I survived my dark night.
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Today is a new day. Springtime. The newness of the season. New beginnings. Just move on. It will be ok.
Perhaps someday he will see that maybe I was the one that God sent to him. The woman for him to love, to cherish, to give him hope, to hold his hand. The woman to give him a home with laughing children. The woman who would never hurt him like the others before Whose heart has known pain, and would never hurt this man she loves.
But life is all about choices.
Let him go... Let him go... and cry for what could have been. Let him go... Let him go... and cry for what will never be. The nights of passion, beautiful brown-eyed children, a life filled with love. Let him go. Let him go. And be glad, not sad, for the short time we loved each other.
Fairl_Girl
Age: 125
7610 days old here
Total Posts: 26920
Points: 0
Location:
Pakistan, Pakistan
Love Is In The Air
Love is in the air, the cold has gone away It's back to the way it was that hot July day But something now is different, something now has changed It's not my handing your holding, you're still happy but it's strange I look into a mirror and see only what is there I look into your eyes and don't see me anywhere You heart is full of love, full of laughter, full of soul It's full of someone else and I'm no longer there at all It's hard to see it happening when I first saw it it was with me We were once a fantasy and now we're a harsh reality That doesn't mean that love will not guide you to your place I guess it means forever found a new soul a new place Remember when you hate me that once you love'd me too But I guess all that is over, because you've found somebody new I wish you all the happiness and love in the world To get into your heart you have to be a special girl The gates are now closed and St. Peter's cast his vote I walk away and look back and hold a love lost in my tote But with all this I thank you and know I'll always care Love signaled our begining and now our end is in the air
