*WARNING: this one might be extra sad*
MY childhood
when that word pops
into your mouth and blurts
out only one thing play in my mind
like a freakin sad story over and over
and you know what else
its one of those movies you can never forget
the one that sticks with you throughout life
like a scar and theres no way to resist.
If some silly person comes onto the oprah show to tell
there stupid story
I myself, get so damn emotional
not cause I feel bad for what someone did to you
but because I feel sad cause Im reminded or something
so terrible and I wish you werent here on Tv blabbin all
about it and reminding me of what my childhood
cost me.
Only if my parents werent working always
and I hadnt been under his supervision
maybe nothing couldve happened
But its those people you trust that if you really think
hard...you cant trust. Its those people that gave birth to you that also ruin you. Its those people who nurtured you that also harmed you. Cna you imagine.
You dont know what im talkin about. Good cause I really dont want to say it straight out.
OH...mom when I told you
I wish you woudlve believed me
thats what hurt me the most. What mother doesnt believe her child
that night I told you
you denied it...
but still you held me when I cried and I fell asleep in your arms.
But mom why werent you there for me...
why didnt you stop it.
Its not funny folks this story is serious so please stop alughing your hurting my feelings. Quit picking on that child it couldve been you.
when I think back to my childhood...I wonder how things couldve been. If I had grown up without this. I see things with more light. Things that might have made life
so much more better. I couldve been a happy child. You person...Oh I hate you so much. I try not to...but you did is so unforgivable.
yes...its unforgiveable...but I am God's creation. And GOd teaches me to forget and forgive. But I try to hard to forget this thing but it haunts me like an unleashed ghost. It follows me like my shadow. It lies in my eyes like frozen tears.
I want to forgive you because Someday I want God to forgive me for the mistakes I made here in this world. BUt thats the only reason.
Sometimes I wish I could throw the whole thing in your face. Like a pudding pie so it slabbers. But then I worry might you have a heartattack.. Then mayeb everyone will blame me for your death. No one knows not even my dad.
WHat do dads do...
try to protect their children...
and if my dad ever found out...Im sure he would also be in shock. ANd then he'd want to kill you even though your the one that brought him into this world. He wouldnt give a ****. At that moment he'd rip you to pieces and I would sit and watch. Cause thats what you deserve.
I jsut dont want to talk about this anymore.
***********I WARNED YAH***********
Nope tapes runnin fine...
with you
