~tasha~
Age: 125
6648 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
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Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
The past is the future
The future is the past
I want to change
I have to change
My life has had many problems
Problems I can't handle
Life is full of so many obstacles
Obstacles that get in my way
My way may not be the right way
The right way may be wrong
Wrong turns
Dead ends
No answers
Who can I talk to
Where can I go to get away
Away from the pain
Away from the issues that are driving me insane.
This is the year for new beginnings
I did change
I had to change
Changed to find out life has obstacles
you learn from everyday
My past is my future
I learn from it
My future is my past
I grow from it
~tasha~
Age: 125
6648 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
Points: 0
Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
I worry
About many things
A teenager always has a full mind
But lately
All that’s on my mind
Is you.
I worry
My heart is filled
It overflows
Spills out of my pores
I cannot contain
My grief, my apprehension
My distress
Overwhelming.
I worry
About your state of mind
Your mental health
And how much pain you seem to carry
Like slabs of solemn rock
Fitted to your back
You clutch to them
It is your strength
yet your weakness
Ultimate downfall
I wish you would just let me in
Let me take that weight of your back
I would suffer through endless agony
All that pain
Any pain
Countless beatings, deaths,
unimaginable anguish
Just
Let me
Let me dammit
Don’t you realize
I would
Strap all of your baggage
Emotional, physiological, physical
Without a second thought
Nothing would be worth more to me
Then to see you happy
Carefree for once
But no one ever has
They might think they have
But I know better
You don’t let anyone though
But you break their layers
Without them even noticing
And you fix and fix
Selflessly
You care
You care too much.
And I worry
Perhaps I care too much too
But I cannot fight my feelings
While you thrust your heart
Into everything you do
It is a miracle
A miracle that you don’t crack and explode
Under all of that pressure
The impending strain
On your soul
Your existence.
I worry.
I worry that you do too much
That you care for everyone
Everyone but yourself.
I worry
Cause you won’t let anyone in
Through your layers and layers.
I worry
That one day you will just break
And I won’t be there to catch you
As you start your emotional plunge.
And I worry
That I will be hopeless
Completely and utterly hopeless
When you need me the most
In your own dark pit
A pit of despair.
Why?
Why won’t you let me in?
I can’t understand
All I want
Is your smile
On your face
Even if I can’t personally put it there
I want you to know
I am here for you
Just let me in
Please,
Please.
Let me in
Before it is too late
For everyone.
~tasha~
Age: 125
6648 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
Points: 0
Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
I waited for you years and years and years ago
if you would come, I would not know
until the years have passed away
but there I’d waited in dismay.
To be with you all my life
I risked my heart and pain and strife.
It hurt too much, I loved you so
I wish I was able to let you know
how much I cared, how much you meant to me
but now I know that it may never be
because now you’re gone
and probably forgot me as the years pasted on.
I wish it were different I wish you were here so I could say
how much I love you, how much my feelings still kept this way
I know that we were meant to be one forever
despite the years that were lost one day we’ll be together
~tasha~
Age: 125
6648 days old here
Total Posts: 47628
Points: 0
Location:
United Kingdom, United Kingdom
usey yaad ker k na dil dukha, jo guzar gia wo guzar gia,
kahan lout ker koi ayai ga, jo guzar gia wo guzar gia,
Nayai subah hay, nayai shaab hay, naya shahar hay, naya naam hai,
Woh chala gaya usay bhool jaa, jo guzar gia woh guzar gia,
Koi ayai ga koi jayai ga, koi jayai ga koi ayai ga,
Suno raston ki sada, jo guzar gaya wo guzar gia,
Teray paas tera habai hay, jo nahin mila woh naseeb hay,
Koi phool kehta hai muskura, jo guzar gaia woh guzar gia,
Mujhey pat jharon ki kahanian na suna suna kay udaas ker,
Nayai mausamon ka pata bata, jo guzar gia wo guzar gia,
Yahan aetbar-o-yaqeen hai, yeh haqiqaton ki zameen hay,
Zara dair ka koi khuwab tha, jo guzar gia wo guzar gia
gr8 work 
