~tasha~
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Remembering
In my own remembering, I can see so many things. Days of bliss were much too brief. Longer nights of pain and grief. In my own remembering, all my sins forgive.
Memory, can never be, mere fact or history. Memory, is more complex; of mute agenda and subtext. Memory, will flow and ebb, according to one's mental web. Memory, a visceral mix, of deja vu and subtle tricks.
In my own remembering, thwarted dreams will all take wing. Flights of fancy, foolish lies, float in ether's cloudless skies. In my own imagining, I begin to live.
Memory, the neurone taps, the fiery spark at the arch synapse. Memory, the self entraps, the slant or view in happy snaps. Memory, applauds and claps, our weary march to last collapse. Memory, marks time elapsed, a heartbeat drawn on virtual maps.
In my own remembering, just a cog or underling, was never made for real fame. Cared not a fig to play the game. In my own dissembling, all my sins forgive.
Memory, is mercury, a silver flash of the quick adept. Memory, is emory, it smoothes a path, and slicks the step. Memory, can gather wool, unless it's used, trained or schooled. Memory, the survivor's tool. Memory, is lost to fools.
In my own remembering, unhappy themes remove thy sting. Regret may prove the heart impure. The loss of love must be endured. In my own remembering, all my sins forgive.
Memory, will often be, a twisted tale of mystery. Memory, can be repressed, or triggered by an idle jest. Memory, so sure to vex, unstring the mind, the bow and flex. Memory, and core defects, become combined in blind reflex. Memory, is never proof, to hold aloft or keep aloof. Memory, is claw and tooth, an ancient art and modern truth.
In my own remembering, the myth of self's - a holy being. Righteous faith is never wrong. No doubt infects my public song. In my own remembering, I begin to live.
~tasha~
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The Tally
Blood speckles the earthen ground, Men sacrifice their life, their mind, their everything. A fading memory, a shimmering sound.
The face of life wears a frown, For life is flying on broken wings, As blood speckles the earthen ground.
Family photos lay strewn to later be found, Among the anguished souls, still longing, searching, For a fading memory, a shimmering sound.
Functions cease and pumps break down, Adrenaline lies dormant, still waiting, As blood speckles the earthen ground.
Thoughts float by under limits and bounds, The calls and prayers soothing, The fading memory, the shimmering sound.
The effort of many, of whose spirits are wound, Tightly on strings pulled taut by forces of reckoning, As blood speckles the earthen ground, For a fading memory, a shimmering sound.
~tasha~
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Hug Tightly Your Dreams
Hug tightly your dreams. They bring you solace and comfort Like the stuffed animal companions Of your childhood. When you lock them away In the attic of your mind You begin to age. The wine of aspiration Becomes the vinegar Of a defeated psyche.
~tasha~
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My Dreams Are the Sun
See that golden hue Burning in the west My dreams are with that color My dreams are the sun The sun always sets But never seems to rise That sun carries my dreams Slowly out of my reach I watch it slide away Leaving me behind The color disappears My dreams are with that sun Whenever the sun sets It rises in another place A place blessed by that light My dreams are hidden in that light At my window seat I watch the sun take it all away My dreams are with the sun My dreams are the sun
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Shadows
Faith lies deep In the broken hearts of The forever wandering Shadows They silently weep In their complete distress Though the cries permeate Deeper Eternally faithful They tend to doubt why They even bother with their Life Never ungrateful The result of knowing things Could always be so much Worse To never lie Is the underlying motive of The hopeful and beloved Shadow To never die Is the promise of a Father Who calls His shadows Beautiful
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Who Are the Afflicted?
.: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : .: : . What causes more pain? They ask nonchalantly Not knowing who’s sane. I say with regret What’s worse than living? They ask unaware Alive but not breathing. I cringe as I speak Does it kill us all? They ask with no interest If the broken all fall. I say with no pride What hurts worse then tears? They ask with sarcasm Holding tight all your fears. I say with closed eyes Who’s the exaggerator? They ask with no feeling. The pained crying slayer. I say with a tear. Then who are the afflicted? They ask with true caution Those who know much. I speak no more words
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The Only Survivor
Let them fall They were never meant to stand I hear you call Though you’re far across this land Others stumble While trying to break free These walls will crumble And this you will begin to see Hold me tight That’s the one thing that I need And in this light I can finally dare to dream
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There’s Always Room For Benefit
When you know why Everything spins just right And everything in the light Is perfect
When you know how The sun rises and sets And there’s always room for benefit Then you know how everything pans out These voices won’t drown out Because I’m singing
Now I understand Everything I ever thought about Those amateur thoughts just swimming around And the wind outside drowned out the sound But now everyone is singing
… I know how high This feeling can carry me I now know why I could never see And I could never hear The song that we’re all signing now
It’s that I’m not on the ground And everything that’s around Is signing the song that souls long to sing The echoes that this brings To carry out our song
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Below the Boundaries
And the lights spin in front of my eyes. Nothing is really clear. Every sound is now inaudible Yet every sound I hold dear Running through the maze of life The sun has turned to black The sky is no longer my safe haven Now all my thoughts turn back Uneven lines and bumpy roads Misconceptions fill this world My mind works quickly with this air Eyes no longer see the cold the stars burst the light vanishes I feel warmth and I smile, content at last
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Each And All
Little thinks, in the field, yon red-cloaked clown Of thee from the hill-top looking down; The heifer that lows in the upland farm, Far-heard, lows not thine ear to charm; The wexton, tolling his bell at noon, Deems not that great Napoleon Stops his horse, and lists with delight, Whilst his files sweep round yon Alpine height; Nor knowest thou what argument Thy life to thy neighbor's creed has lent. All are needed by each one; Nothing is fair or good alone. I thought the sparrow's note from heaven, Singing at dawn on the lader bough; I brought him home, in his nest, at even; He sings the song, but it cheers not now, For I did not bring home the river and the sky; - He sang to my ear, - they sang to my eye. The delicate shells lay on the shore; The bubbles of the latest wave Fresh pearls to their enamel gave, And the Bellowing of the savage sea Greeted their safe escape to me. I wiped away the weeds and foam, I fetched my sea-born treasures home; But the poor, unsightly, noisome things Had left their beauty at the shore With the sun and the sand and the wild uproar. The lover watched his graceful maid, As 'mid the virgin train she stayed, Nor knew her beauty's best attire Was woven still by the snow-white choir. At last she came to his hermitage, Like the bird from the woodlandsto the cage; - The gay enchantment was undone, A gentle wife, but fairy none. Then I said, "I covet truth; Beauty is unripe childhood's cheat; I leave it behind with the games of youth:" - As I spoke, beneath my feet The ground-pine curled its pretty wreath, Running over the club-moss burrs; I inhaled the violet's breath; Around me stood the oaks and firs; Pine-cones and acorns lay on the ground; Over me soared the eternal sky, Full of light and of deity; Again I saw, again I heard, The rolling river, the morning bird; - Beauty through my senses stole; I yielded myself to the perfect whole.
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Give All To Love
Give all to love; Obey thy heart; Friends, kindred, days, Estate, good-fame, Plans, credit and the Muse, Nothing refuse. 'T is a brave master; Let it have scope: Follow it utterly, Hope beyond hope: High and more high It dives into noon, With wing unspent, Untold intent; But it is a god, Knows its own path And the outlets of the sky. It was never for the mean; It requireth courage stout. Souls above doubt, Valor unbending, It will reward, They shall return More than they were, And ever ascending.
Leave all for love; Yet, hear me, yet, One word more thy heart behoved, One pulse more of firm endeavor, Keep thee to-day, To-morrow, forever, Free as an Arab Of thy beloved.
Cling with life to the maid; But when the surprise, First vague shadow of surmise Flits across her bosom young, Of a joy apart from thee, Free be she, fancy-free; Nor thou detain her vesture's hem, Nor the palest rose she flung From her summer diadem.
Though thou loved her as thyself, As a self of purer clay, Though her parting dims the day, Stealing grace from all alive; Heartily know, When half-gods go, The gods arrive.
~tasha~
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Only Tomorrow
I feel like I've ripped you apart, and torn you down, because I've ruined the best thing in your life. And for what? For what? For my own selfish gain. I wanted more than was ever there, I wanted back what I never had. And to live with choices, I have made, knowing I'm the one that caused you pain. You blame yourself, when it's me that did the most wrong, and dreams, become waterdrops, become tears that fall down.
But there's no point to life, if living with regrets, no going back in time, no second chance. I placed my trust, I opened up, and now it's your turn to do the same. I can't lie about how I feel, can't take back what's happened to you, can't make everything better, can only be here to atone for my past. Now I live with what's been done, what I've broke up, but I live without regrets, so there is no past, what's left is only tomorrow.
~tasha~
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Make believe
Looking in the mirror Wondering who I am Asking why you're here with me and beside me you still stand. Not recognizing any thoughts That come into my mind Life passes right before my eyes I've lost all track of time.
And I don't know where to begin To get back home again Couldn't tell you where I've been Just want to see your face again
You could make believe you're happy Make believe you're true to your heart Make believe you're still alive inside And you've found the missing part Make believe you've found freedom And you have everything you need But in the end you'll be alone again And then what will you believe?
~tasha~
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The One
the night brings me to a new sorrow and wondering whats the point of tomorrow can i just forget all that pain will it just wash away and make me plain putting a smile on my face isn't working it isn't worth it to live my facade and deny how i feel it isn't helping to wonder if what is happening is real but every day i try to forget all the things that make me wish i wasn't here they just won't hold back and i'm mostly afraid that all of my fear is leading me to this place of darkness and gray wishing that all of my emotion would just go away wishing that everything would change and hoping for a new kinda of day the one where everything is better the one where i can finally forget her the one where all my troubles and woe are gone the one where i've learned to move on the one where people don't try to tell me what i feel and where all my sorrow has finally healed waiting for tomorrow looking past today waiting for tomorrow forgetting everything trying to hide everything i know trying so hard to not let it show trying so hard to wash away my sin trying so hard to keep tears within pushing as far forward as i can stand to go pulling away from my past pushing as far forward as my heart will allow pulling away from people and places in my memory
~tasha~
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I Just...
There are things inside of my head Things I can never seem to describe How can I say “I Love You”? I don’t even know me I just want to understand
There are things inside of my heart Things I can never figure out Why do I say “I’m Here For You”? I have no one I just want to love again
I have hopes and dreams for you and I Will they ever take flight? I have hopes and dreams to follow through Can I put up the fight?
All of the things inside of my head All of the things inside of my heart It always seems we have to part Just when things seem so right I just want to understand
So I dream of another day A day that I’m with you A day that I’m free A day I finally understand
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When you walked in my life...
When you walked in my life You wiped my tears When you walked in my life You built my heart strong When you walked in my life You made my life precious When you walked in my life You taught me meaning of love When you walked in my life You showed me many things When you walked in my life You made my love grow for you When you walked in my life You told me how much I mean to you When you walked in my life You made your caring soul inside me When you walked in my life You gave me memories to cherish forever And I will there for you till my eyes close dear
~tasha~
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Let Peace Prevail In This World.......
When you look for peace then the peace lies within you When you search for peace then it is not hard to find When you want to keep peace alive then you allow white doves to fly over you When you make peace with others then the whole world live in your heart When you let peace be in the world then you live in wonderful world When you allow peace flow around the world then your hateness will go and love will flow When you open the door for peace then peace welcome to your lives. Let the peace prevail in our wonderful world
~tasha~
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When I walk alone.......
When I walk alone, I think of you my love When I walk alone, I walk with broken heart When I walk alone, I walk with sadness When I walk alone, I walk with my silent tears When I walk alone, I walk with my sorrow When I walk alone, I walk with my sad memories When I walk alone, I walk with my shattered dream When I walk alone, I walk with my hands lifeless Love never walk alone but you made me walk alone You promised me that you will walk with me forever but you made me walk alone with my tears forever When the heaven stolen you from me yesterday All your promises are gone with the wind Today, You made me walk alone with out you my love and I promise you, I will walk alone till my journey ends
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I am singing in the rain......
I am singing in the rain......
When the clouds above me so dark When the stars are not be seen in the sky When the moon is gone away from the site When the cool breeze being to touch me softly When the thunder and lightening make me afraid Then the rain begin to shower upon me
I am singing and dancing in the rain I am playing and falling in the rain What a glorious feelings that I have when its rain
When I hold you hands and walk in the rain When you arm around my waist hold like a chain When my umbrella being to dance in the air When the rain water rush down to the canal When the street lights blink on the streets Then my love on you is singing in the rain
I am singing and dancing in the rain I am playing and falling in the rain What a glorious feelings that I have when its rain
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I Need You My Love......
I need you my love Without you I can not live I need you my love Without you my heart is incomplete I need you my love Without you my love is meaningless I need you my love Without you my eyes will not closed for sleep I need you my love Without you my words are speechless I need you my love Without you I am lost in this world I need you my love Without you I will lose my eternity I need you my love Without you I am weak I need you my love Without you I am nothing I need you my love and never let me experience without you my love
~tasha~
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Your promises are enough now my love....
Your promises of love is enough my love Now, truly love me with all your heart All I need your love that yet to find on you Let your fingers touch and wake my silent heart
I want to be where you want to be my love Be with me when my love call on you my love Hold on me when your love thirst on me my love Let my love sound in your heart with rhythm
Days are gone, still waiting for you lonely with my tears Love is so precious where my life what you make it We can not let our love fly away with sorrowful thoughts Let your heart touch my soul and wake my silent feelings
I want to be where you want to be my love Be with me when my love call on you my love Hold on me when your love thirst on me my love Let my love sound in your heart with rhythm
~tasha~
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The struggle of life.........
The battle is not over, either the peace is not dead Between the struggle of life is a pain in the world The objects are not achieved either the struggle have brought triumph Between the two walls of hatred, life still found horrible The games are played in the battlefield with human life while God is kept as an Umpire In the battlefield men grapple each other and die and bring glory for his country just for nothing We are human creature and our life is a great mystery And day to day we are living with paralyzing fear Our life is so much of struggle without peace and sweeping with confused thoughts. We travel different journeys with different paths Our journey is either short or long but never meant to stay for ever But during our stay we have to find a peace of life and it is only possible through the Kingdom of Heaven.
