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Although consumed by fury, you still loved us. At least that is the knowledge of my heart. Screaming like a child, you would beat us Until you snapped, and then the tears would start. "You know I love you," you would cry, demanding More of us through tears than with your fist. And we, through tears, would nod our understanding, Too bullied in our pain to dare resist. Yet now that you've been dead for many years, And I have wandered through my own vast hell, I see the desperate anguish in your tears And hope at last that I can love you well. For only in my love can your love be The love that once, I think, you had for me.
eshajam
Age: 36
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I feel lost and sad There's no way to get out There's no way to get out of this thing called life
I wanna get out I wanna start new I wanna show you That I love you
Now you're gone I feel so alone I let you go I want you home
I'm sorry for all the grief and pain I caused I'm sorry for everything I've done But honestly I have to say I feel like I want to run Run away from everything Away from this life Away with you For happiness that's rite
I'm not myself no more I need you back in my life I feel nothing now besides depression and sadness
I need you back Back in my life To stay forever
Maybe if I got you back We could both be happy again But that can't happen if you don't come back Come back to what's rite, you're true life
eshajam
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If I could show you the pain pushing out of my body, Id instantly hope you were blind, A horrible thought of your eyes drowning, And gasping over the beats of my heart, As if you couldn't handle the truth of, How I'm living each day, With monsters walking through my head, And ferocious animals pounding through my bloodshot eyes, The pulses that are beating, Are really angels inside of me, Being murdered by the strangling veins of my demons, While the devil is drowning through my blood, And the lord is screaming names of sins, I find myself battling with the most innocent of creatures, And getting along with the most dangerous ones, I'll find myself more alive than ever, Sitting alone to hear the screams of strangers, To hear the silence of people I love, And while your sitting here understanding this, I'm lost in my thoughts, Trying to figure all of this out.
eshajam
Age: 36
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Those three words, they ring in my head Louder and louder as I lie in my bed. No one understands the pain that I feel, As I quietly beg God to just let it heal.
Your probably just thinkin' that I'm going insane, But this feeling, it cuts right through my veins. I'm trying my best to just be tough. Never did I think it would be this rough.
People always told me it'd be worth it in the end But I'm starting to realize it's going to bend.. Bend so far that I'm going to break. I can't take this no more; it's all just too fake.
I'll love you always, I knew it was a lie. But I never cared, it never made me cry. Although I do now when I think of us together, And even though you hate me, I'll truly love you forever.
But with every kiss and every single hug, You made me fall even deeper in love. A feeling like this can never go away. So I hope you know I'm here to stay.
eshajam
Age: 36
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Sadness is a feeling A feeling of sorrow It's when people or animals die When there's no tomorrow It's when you sigh It's when u fade You shut out the world You wish life was made Sadness can be brutal Sadness can be light It can be cruel It can be as dark as night Sadness is a feeling A feeling of sorrow
eshajam
Age: 36
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Lost in this saddened misery Of a life so grim and heart-breaking Can't seem to find relief from this pain As my eyes weep for eternity. I can't seem to figure out why My heart aches so much As the tears run down my face You sit there clueless as to why. I haven't told you of the pain That my soul forever bears On the outside i'm like a ghost But inside the pain takes over. I will never tell you how I feel Because you probably don't care Of what I thought we had together To find out none of it was there. So now I'll sit here holding back All my emotions from you I'm just your friend and nothing more As my heart no longer beats.
eshajam
Age: 36
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Time has past so fast, i have nothing to say. I lay there crying yet it all turns white... Sometimes i wish more than i see more than i dream... yet to only find it crashing down with all my hopes... My time has past so fast so long... i have nothing to say... i lay here with my tears which turn black... sometimes i wish upon each star hoping one will carry me home.... yet everything crashes with my hopes and my dreams
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eshajam said:
Time has past so fast, i have nothing to say. I lay there crying yet it all turns white... Sometimes i wish more than i see more than i dream... yet to only find it crashing down with all my hopes... My time has past so fast so long... i have nothing to say... i lay here with my tears which turn black... sometimes i wish upon each star hoping one will carry me home.... yet everything crashes with my hopes and my dreams
Fairl_Girl
Age: 124
7523 days old here
Total Posts: 26920
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eshajam said:
Lost in this saddened misery Of a life so grim and heart-breaking Can't seem to find relief from this pain As my eyes weep for eternity. I can't seem to figure out why My heart aches so much As the tears run down my face You sit there clueless as to why. I haven't told you of the pain That my soul forever bears On the outside i'm like a ghost But inside the pain takes over. I will never tell you how I feel Because you probably don't care Of what I thought we had together To find out none of it was there. So now I'll sit here holding back All my emotions from you I'm just your friend and nothing more As my heart no longer beats.
eshajam
Age: 36
6332 days old here
Total Posts: 15689
Points: 0
Location:
United Arab Emirates, United Arab Emirates
Fairl_Girl said:
eshajam said:
Lost in this saddened misery Of a life so grim and heart-breaking Can't seem to find relief from this pain As my eyes weep for eternity. I can't seem to figure out why My heart aches so much As the tears run down my face You sit there clueless as to why. I haven't told you of the pain That my soul forever bears On the outside i'm like a ghost But inside the pain takes over. I will never tell you how I feel Because you probably don't care Of what I thought we had together To find out none of it was there. So now I'll sit here holding back All my emotions from you I'm just your friend and nothing more As my heart no longer beats.
sad.. jamz 
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