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Although consumed by fury, you still loved us. At least that is the knowledge of my heart. Screaming like a child, you would beat us Until you snapped, and then the tears would start. "You know I love you," you would cry, demanding More of us through tears than with your fist. And we, through tears, would nod our understanding, Too bullied in our pain to dare resist. Yet now that you've been dead for many years, And I have wandered through my own vast hell, I see the desperate anguish in your tears And hope at last that I can love you well. For only in my love can your love be The love that once, I think, you had for me.
eshajam
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I waited for your love in hope, That ours would come again, And make me feel the things I felt, When we were one, back then.
But time and distance have erased, The things I wished anew, And now I find myself alone, Though I am here with you.
What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain.
I traveled to another world, Out far beyond the one we knew, I thought that I could live again, And now I find I'm back with you.
But what of hearts that beat as one, And what of passion and embrace, Is it too much to ask of you, To make these tears of mine erase.
What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain.
Too painful this - to journey back, To times of love and laughter free, The times we lay together with A sense of you , a sense of me.
So now, I journey on alone, Forever wandering, in my thoughts, And I shall ask you once again, What good is love.
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eshajam said:
I waited for your love in hope, That ours would come again, And make me feel the things I felt, When we were one, back then.
But time and distance have erased, The things I wished anew, And now I find myself alone, Though I am here with you.
What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain.
I traveled to another world, Out far beyond the one we knew, I thought that I could live again, And now I find I'm back with you.
But what of hearts that beat as one, And what of passion and embrace, Is it too much to ask of you, To make these tears of mine erase.
What good is love, that does not touch, What good is love, that gives you pain. What good is love, that makes you run, And makes you lost out in the rain.
Too painful this - to journey back, To times of love and laughter free, The times we lay together with A sense of you , a sense of me.
So now, I journey on alone, Forever wandering, in my thoughts, And I shall ask you once again, What good is love.
eshajam
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And so it came to be this isolation that I am I can only look to me to find the way it all began - this confusion, constant hunger for something more than this I strive to find this being that I envision, yet seem to miss. Could it be that I am empty- or maybe a little lost? Could it be that I am lonely, or seek happiness at any cost? This never-ending Something that I am living deep inside, depicts the illusion of myself and all I have to do is....hide.
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eshajam said:
And so it came to be this isolation that I am I can only look to me to find the way it all began - this confusion, constant hunger for something more than this I strive to find this being that I envision, yet seem to miss. Could it be that I am empty- or maybe a little lost? Could it be that I am lonely, or seek happiness at any cost? This never-ending Something that I am living deep inside, depicts the illusion of myself and all I have to do is....hide.
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eshajam said:
this isolation that I am I can only look to me to find the way it all began - This never-ending Something that I am living deep inside, depicts the illusion of myself and all I have to do is....hide.
eshajam
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I feel you in the morning When at first I awake Your thought is with me With each decision I make
You'd been around forever Since the first breath I took Now I have to go on alone But for love, I need not look
Cause by what you bestowed In our short time together Will last in my heart Forever and ever
Although you've left And now walk above I'm never alone I'm wrapped in your love
Enjoy now your long waited reward Feel peace that your love continues on What was taught to me, will be taught to mine Cause you live on in me even after you've..... gone.!!!
eshajam
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Purity once had a name, And beauty once had a face. Life once had a meaning, And once I was safe. Once there was freedom, And once I could laugh. Happiness once was alive, And once I had another half. Once I shared her love, Once I was by her side, Once I felt I fitted, So quickly that died. Her grace so great, Her beauty so vast, All I ever wanted, Was for it to last. Fate maybe had another plan, Or maybe she had another love, But it all fell apart, The hand too big for the glove. Now it's all died away, Happiness, joy, love; all memories. Now I walk alone in this dark, dark world, With no light to guide.......... my way.
eshajam
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My guardian angel, once careless and free, flew into the clouds and lost touch with me. Her tears were cold and wet, falling on my face. Her smile had left us without a trace.
Her angelic lips quivered, frozen and scared, I felt rain clouds visiting, and had to prepare. I knew that angels, often content, were very special presents that God had sent.
To see one so sad, so afraid, so alone, had made me weep while the cold winds had blown.
Her wings lost feathers, comforting and soft, falling from the stars, floating aloft.
Her pain was felt throughout the land, to feel true misery is impossible to stand. I prayed so that when her hurting stops, I'll be able to taste the angel's teardrops.
eshajam
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mmmmmm,if.......if i could melt your heart, mmmmmm,if.......if.. we'did never apart, mmmmmm,give yourself to me mmmmmm,you hold the key now there is no point in placing the blame and you should now i suffer the same if.......if.. i lose you my heart will be broken love is a bird,she needs to fly let all the hurt inside you die you are frozen when your heart's not open..... .........if......if. i could melt your heart......!!!
eshajam
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There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul, It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole. I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day, What is to come, to my dismay. As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions, more and more comes, more and more depression.
I assure myself everything is ok! But who am I fooling? Then I burst into a spirit of rage. I have questions, and there are answers. But I'm afraid and much too weak, When I try to explain, I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek. But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right, But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.
I feel intimidated sometimes by others, But as I said "This is how I feel" The pain in me is very real. I lose control, my thought go wild, and here I am only a child. If only you knew what I thought, If only you knew what I fought. I need my thoughts held captive.
Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal and you'll help me think positive. I'm hurting, I need you! Please don't give up on me! One day I will make you smile! ............I PROMISE...........
