sadness

What happened between us?
What caused this change of heart?
I just want to know what happened,
Cause it's tearing me apart.

I hide my feeling from you,
So you don’t see my pain,
I want you to be happy,
But my tears still fall like rain.

The distance that keeps on growing,
It hurts more every day,
I want to be beside you,
To hear what you have to say.

You want to be just friends,
I’ll try and do my best,
I’ll be your bestest friend,
Is this another test?

I’ll be your friend
I’ll do this just for you,
Until the very end,
I’ll be in love with you.

I don’t know how this started,
And I don’t know how it will end,
But life with out you hurts me,
So I’ll try and be your friend.

I like the person I’ve become,
When you’re in my sight,
I’ve become a better person,
And for this I will fight.

I know that God loves me,
And He always does what’s right,
So I’ll just wait and see what happens,
I don’t want to cause a fight.

Even though my heart is breaking,
A little more every day,
I’ll never let you see that.
You’ll always think that I’m okay.

gud jam n tashu

eshajam said:

MansOob Thay Jo lOg Meri Zindgi Key Sath
AkSar wOhii Milay hAin Bari BerUkhi Key Sath

yOun To Main Hans Para hOn tUmharay Leye Magar
Kitnay Sitaray tOot Paray Eik HanSi Key Sath

FurSat Millay To Apna GireBaan Bhe Dekh Ley
Aae dOst yOun Na Khail Meri Be-BaSsi Key Sath

MajbOoriyoun Kii Baat Chali hAi To Meh Khaa'n
hUm Ney Peya hAi Zehar Bhe AkSar khUshi Key Sath

Chehray Badal Badal Key mUghe Mil Rhay hAin lOg
Itna Bura SalOok Meri Saadgi Key Sath?

Eik Sajda e KhalOos Ki Qemat Fiza e Khuld?
Ya RAAB Na Kar Mazaq Meri BandGi Key Sath

'mOhSin' Karm Lay Bhe Ho Jis Mein KhalOos Bhe
mUgh Ko Ghazab Ka Pyar hAi Us dUshmani Key Sath

old but gud

~tasha~ said:

How can you go any farther down?
any deeper in your own misery and you'll drown

But dont let them know
they dont care anyway
They dont know what its like
They dont want to see
So fend for yourself its a freefall

Look at yourself and think about your heart
is it worth it to pick up each part

Why do you do this to yourself?
put your feelings on the top shelf

where no one can see them
and no one can be them

Just pull me out of my own hole

Who is it that makes you so sad
a blind criminal at whom You can not stay mad

When will you come out of your dark hall

When there is nothing to feel at all...

very gudd

~tasha~ said:

Who have I become? What have I given up today? How much has changed?
These questions, famous for being rhetorical, yet they long to be answered.
My tears even now are forced, when yours are never switched off.

Hurt and me go hand in hand;
If I can't damage me, I'll damage you.
Rip you up and not regret, not regret you,
Only me, it's always me. And I am no one.

Oblivion, I welcome you, rape me again.
Every time I think of the boys you're there.
Make me the next murderer's victim.
Please be painful and last for hours.

Where did my heart go?
I long to pinpoint the time I turned so cold.
Every time I think I'm loved, it's always my own doing.
And now no one will want to know me.

I lie. Never in my bed, always in other people's.
Make me sodomised, and I hope he lies, and says he loves me.
Make me fall in love and have my heart ripped out my arse.
Soft kisses and stales tears are cracking the skin on my face.

Out of this world, all that I feel.
Any thing that ever made me care, ever made me realise how special life is;
Has left out an unseen back door, and gone.
I know it won't return without persuasion but every word I say is dead.

Friends no longer know me. I don't really know friends.
One is there, still he cares, still we have those tell-tale signs of eternal mateship.
But the rest are hazy, and it's only around me.
I don't think we have that essential ingredient, comfortability.

It used to be so easy, love and be loved.
What's so impossible? Consumed with paranoia, with having no comfort zone.
Who do I miss the most? All of them that's who.
But even that is a lie, the one I miss the most, whose friendship will never mend is holding the pen right now.

So cold. This winter has been icy as a snow flake.
And where am I going? And what are my roots? And when will I die?
And where are my family? And why death? And how?
And religion, where are you? And why is futility the only thing that makes sense?

And why do we not care any more? And why is there gossip and lies about the ones we love?
And who else feels like this? And who else has so many questions? And why?
And am I dead now? And if so, why do I feel I still have so much more death to go?
And will I get over this? And is anyone listening? And do they care?

nice
keep it up

~tasha~ said:

With a tear-streaked face I smile as if nothing is wrong and everything is ok
But what my heart says can never be described
My misery is disguised behind my empty eyes
I cry until my face burns bright
I scream until my ears stop the pitch from ringing and I plead with something or someone to end all my pain
My anger is taken out on myself,My soul is crying for help and my heart is tattered to pieces
My lips will not speak my pain nor will they mention any hint of emotion
What you see about me is only what you want to see,
You'll never know the real me.

nice tashu

thxx
dear ones...

Nazre Jhuki to Paimane bane,
Dil tute to Maikhane bane,
Kuch to zaroor khas hai aap mein..
Hum yoon hi nahi aapke Diwane Bane...

Nazre Jhuki to Paimane bane,
Dil tute to Maikhane bane,
Kuch to zaroor khas hai aap mein..
Hum yoon hi nahi aapke Diwane Bane...

wow
v.nice ji

good work

You and I were the greatest thing
Laughter and smiles is what we would bring

We would talk on the phone, until it was time for bed
Even then I would see you, in my dreams, inside my head

Every time I saw you, I would always smile
You could see a glow in my eyes from miles and miles

Man, I wish I was still holding onto you
But you gotta girl now, so what can I do?

Now when I see you, there's always a frown
Won't you please turn that sad frown upside down?

If you're not happy with this person, then just say goodbye
Because seeing you depressed, brings tears to my eyes

Today I approached you, but you didn't say a word
I still have feelings for you, haven't you heard?

I miss seeing you smile and laugh
Won't you please remember the fun we had?

Holding hands coming from lunch
Wow! I miss you a whole bunch

Just ask my family, you were all I talked about
Now all I do is walk around the house and pout

I love hearing your voice; it brings a smile to my face
It's a sound that I shall always embrace

I had no idea I actually felt this way
Please tell me, why does it feel like you're pushing me away?

The reason we broke up, I don't even know why
Just thinking about you now makes me want to cry

It was peer pressure; they said you lied too much
But I would easily take you back with just one touch

The one your with, for you, doesn't even care
That is why right now she gets pretty mean stares

Enough about her, she makes me sick
I miss you way more than just a little bit

I need to toughen up; I know we'll always be apart
That is the reason why right now, I have a broken heart

v.nice

thanx fg, jam & king

Climbed the mountain to the top,
reached the summit did not stop.
I'd climb with you most anywhere,
to soar with you aloft mid air.

Fly with me leave pain behind,
so off we went both flying blind.
Into the blue azure we flew,
spread our wings with love so new.

Wind currents drifted far between,
above the hills and valley green.
It seemed we were on our way,
then in the distance clouds of gray.

Into the darkness I decended,
you flew away our love ended.
Left all alone to face the storm
thunderheads began to swarm.

With broken wings I could not fly,
so all alone about to die.
Why you left I will never know,
to the mountain and death below.

hmm. very kool

thx twisty

u r welcome tasha

~tasha~ said:

Climbed the mountain to the top,
reached the summit did not stop.
I'd climb with you most anywhere,
to soar with you aloft mid air.

Fly with me leave pain behind,
so off we went both flying blind.
Into the blue azure we flew,
spread our wings with love so new.

Wind currents drifted far between,
above the hills and valley green.
It seemed we were on our way,
then in the distance clouds of gray.

Into the darkness I decended,
you flew away our love ended.
Left all alone to face the storm
thunderheads began to swarm.

With broken wings I could not fly,
so all alone about to die.
Why you left I will never know,
to the mountain and death below.

great..!!!

Broken Heart

I watch the sun sink into the ocean
and my heart overflows with emotion
noone seems to understand my situation
my fault...i loved u ...with all my devotion...

and now here i stand alone
it is from here i had made a start
and now u r not around
and i am left with a BROKEN HEART....

I try to look for some traces
of ur presence in the air
but now other things seem to be important
as u dont hav time to spare

and now here i stand alone
it is from here i had made a start
and now u r not around
and i am left with a BROKEN HEART....

Now my eyes are dry, no more tears...
but my heart still cries..
I cant seem to forget u
But my heart still tries!!!
My life's all dull
and its darkness within me
Oh Love you , i will
even if u call me 'crazy'
but u dont understand cos now u've left my hand

so now here i stand alone
and it is from here that i had made a start
and now u r not around
and i am left with a BROKEN HEART....

eshajam said:

Broken Heart

I watch the sun sink into the ocean
and my heart overflows with emotion
noone seems to understand my situation
my fault...i loved u ...with all my devotion...

and now here i stand alone
it is from here i had made a start
and now u r not around
and i am left with a BROKEN HEART....

I try to look for some traces
of ur presence in the air
but now other things seem to be important
as u dont hav time to spare

and now here i stand alone
it is from here i had made a start
and now u r not around
and i am left with a BROKEN HEART....

Now my eyes are dry, no more tears...
but my heart still cries..
I cant seem to forget u
But my heart still tries!!!
My life's all dull
and its darkness within me
Oh Love you , i will
even if u call me 'crazy'
but u dont understand cos now u've left my hand

so now here i stand alone
and it is from here that i had made a start
and now u r not around
and i am left with a BROKEN HEART....

oh ho oh ho v.touching    

thxx
Tashu n MM

...Lonely Nights...

Since you’re gone
There is an empty space
Since you’re gone
The world is not the same

I go back to the places we’ve been
It feels like you’re still there
I live all those moments again
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a lonely heart
Since you’re gone
Nothing is like it was

There are memories all over the place
Bringing it back all so clear
I remember all of those days
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a heart that bleeds
Since you’re gone
I’m not the man I used to be

I follow you're steps in the snow
The traces disappear
We know what we’ve lost when it’s gone
I’m wishing you were here

All those lonely nights
I lied on my bed and cried
I still think of you
Yes I do

thx..

eshajam said:

...Lonely Nights...

Since you’re gone
There is an empty space
Since you’re gone
The world is not the same

I go back to the places we’ve been
It feels like you’re still there
I live all those moments again
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a lonely heart
Since you’re gone
Nothing is like it was

There are memories all over the place
Bringing it back all so clear
I remember all of those days
Wishing you were here

Since you’re gone
There is a heart that bleeds
Since you’re gone
I’m not the man I used to be

I follow you're steps in the snow
The traces disappear
We know what we’ve lost when it’s gone
I’m wishing you were here

All those lonely nights
I lied on my bed and cried
I still think of you
Yes I do

thxx
king n tasha

I cry...you laugh
I drown...you sail away
I try my best...you crush it
I fly with broken wings...you just soar even higher
I frown in doubt...you smile harder
I feel cold...you hold someone else in your arms
I chase you...you run faster
I call out your name for help...you hide in the shadows
I want love...you give me pity and hate
I break into pieces...you watch it happen
I crawl...you just leave me behind
AND NOW
when i .....am ......dead,
you are ...CRYING..!!!