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eshajam

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Although consumed by fury, you still loved us.
At least that is the knowledge of my heart.
Screaming like a child, you would beat us
Until you snapped, and then the tears would start.
"You know I love you," you would cry, demanding
More of us through tears than with your fist.
And we, through tears, would nod our understanding,
Too bullied in our pain to dare resist.
Yet now that you've been dead for many years,
And I have wandered through my own vast hell,
I see the desperate anguish in your tears
And hope at last that I can love you well.
For only in my love can your love be
The love that once, I think, you had for me.
Posted 25 Jul 2007

~tasha~ says
Posted 04 Nov 2007

Miss mine says


   gud   
Posted 04 Nov 2007

eshajam says
Lashakir said:

Uss k honton ka tabbasum rahay qaim 'YA RUB'...
Uss k 'JEVAN' main khushion ka basera kar day...

Tu mere karb ki raaton ko bhalay khatam na kar...
Uss ki har sham k aakhir main SAWERA kar day...

Uss k 'DIL' k kisi konay main jaga dey mujh ko..
Uss ki 'AAANKHON' ko meray sapnon say khera kar day...

Yeh meray dil ki dua hai 'MERY MOLA SUN LAY'...
Saaaari dunia say chupaa kar 'USSAY MERA KAR DEY'....

____________



wah g wah
Posted 04 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
The one I love does not love me,
with broken wings he set me free.
How can I fly through pouring rain,
face the darkness feel the pain?

I gather thoughts as teardrops fall,
for you never loved me at all.
Though your passion was so intense,
was only part of love's pretense.

I gave you love with no return,
at each end you let candles burn.
When the one you love does not care,
it can be more then you can bear.

Tears you up, brings you down too,
feel like nothings is left of you.
Loneliness creeps into the night,
dragons bring the fear and fright.

I reach for you and you are gone,
as I awake each early dawn.
Why did you come open my heart,
fill it with pain let heartache start?

It hurt to hear the words you spoke,
rejection leaves a heart so broke.
Your words tell me to go away,
heart breaks to hear words you say.
Posted 05 Nov 2007

eshajam says
Posted 05 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
I shake the thoughts of you
out of my mind
I don't know what's happening
Was this love so blind?

Why do I still dream of you?
Why do I still wish you were here?
Why do I still long to see you?
Why do I wish you were near?

I'm infatuated with you
But I want that feeling to end
I know you don't feel the same
I just want my heart to mend

I hide all these feelings from you
keep them locked up inside
I ask my friends for their help
At least I have in them to confide

I think I'm succeeding
I think this feeling is dying
I think this is working
I think my heart is crying

At least I had the guts to say
how I felt about you
I wished that you felt the same
that you cared for me too.

I guess all I can do now
is just let go
Maybe this feelings isn't real
But I'll just let things flow

I thought you felt the same
I was so naive
I actually thought you cared
That's what I can't believe

I don't know what to do
I don't want to think of you
My heart is empty right now
I just want to make it through

I don't care, I don't feel
With your life, just get goin'
Just forget about me,
So I can end this poem..........!!!!!!!!!
Posted 06 Nov 2007

eshajam says
sad nice...
Posted 06 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says


thankoo
Posted 06 Nov 2007

cutefriend says
gud woek
Posted 07 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
thx guyz
Posted 07 Nov 2007

eshajam says
more
Posted 08 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
fm jam or king
Posted 08 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
post more sad poetries, king
Posted 09 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
Broken arrow
Broken lance
Broken treaty
Wasted chance

Broken thought
Broken thread
Broken silence
Too much said

Broken vow
Broken chain
Broken promise
Alone again

Broken wing
Broken spirit
Broken heart
We wasted it

Broken wing
Broken mirror
Broken glass
I so miss her
Posted 09 Nov 2007

Fairl_Girl says
Posted 12 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
Fairl_Girl said:



thx
Posted 12 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
How can you go any farther down?
any deeper in your own misery and you'll drown

But dont let them know
they dont care anyway
They dont know what its like
They dont want to see
So fend for yourself its a freefall

Look at yourself and think about your heart
is it worth it to pick up each part

Why do you do this to yourself?
put your feelings on the top shelf

where no one can see them
and no one can be them

Just pull me out of my own hole

Who is it that makes you so sad
a blind criminal at whom You can not stay mad

When will you come out of your dark hall

When there is nothing to feel at all...
Posted 13 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
Who have I become? What have I given up today? How much has changed?
These questions, famous for being rhetorical, yet they long to be answered.
My tears even now are forced, when yours are never switched off.

Hurt and me go hand in hand;
If I can't damage me, I'll damage you.
Rip you up and not regret, not regret you,
Only me, it's always me. And I am no one.

Oblivion, I welcome you, rape me again.
Every time I think of the boys you're there.
Make me the next murderer's victim.
Please be painful and last for hours.

Where did my heart go?
I long to pinpoint the time I turned so cold.
Every time I think I'm loved, it's always my own doing.
And now no one will want to know me.

I lie. Never in my bed, always in other people's.
Make me sodomised, and I hope he lies, and says he loves me.
Make me fall in love and have my heart ripped out my arse.
Soft kisses and stales tears are cracking the skin on my face.

Out of this world, all that I feel.
Any thing that ever made me care, ever made me realise how special life is;
Has left out an unseen back door, and gone.
I know it won't return without persuasion but every word I say is dead.

Friends no longer know me. I don't really know friends.
One is there, still he cares, still we have those tell-tale signs of eternal mateship.
But the rest are hazy, and it's only around me.
I don't think we have that essential ingredient, comfortability.

It used to be so easy, love and be loved.
What's so impossible? Consumed with paranoia, with having no comfort zone.
Who do I miss the most? All of them that's who.
But even that is a lie, the one I miss the most, whose friendship will never mend is holding the pen right now.

So cold. This winter has been icy as a snow flake.
And where am I going? And what are my roots? And when will I die?
And where are my family? And why death? And how?
And religion, where are you? And why is futility the only thing that makes sense?

And why do we not care any more? And why is there gossip and lies about the ones we love?
And who else feels like this? And who else has so many questions? And why?
And am I dead now? And if so, why do I feel I still have so much more death to go?
And will I get over this? And is anyone listening? And do they care?
Posted 13 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
Repetitive
You have NO idea
Silent suffering
Naive
Keep going
To ruin your life
Leave me behind
NO ONE will ever support you as much as me
NO ONE will ever care about you as much as i did
And NO ONE will ever feel as badly as i do......
Posted 13 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
With a tear-streaked face I smile as if nothing is wrong and everything is ok
But what my heart says can never be described
My misery is disguised behind my empty eyes
I cry until my face burns bright
I scream until my ears stop the pitch from ringing and I plead with something or someone to end all my pain
My anger is taken out on myself,My soul is crying for help and my heart is tattered to pieces
My lips will not speak my pain nor will they mention any hint of emotion
What you see about me is only what you want to see,
You'll never know the real me.
Posted 13 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
thanx
Posted 14 Nov 2007

eshajam says
WOW great
Posted 14 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
thank you
Posted 14 Nov 2007

eshajam says
MansOob Thay Jo lOg Meri Zindgi Key Sath
AkSar wOhii Milay hAin Bari BerUkhi Key Sath

yOun To Main Hans Para hOn tUmharay Leye Magar
Kitnay Sitaray tOot Paray Eik HanSi Key Sath

FurSat Millay To Apna GireBaan Bhe Dekh Ley
Aae dOst yOun Na Khail Meri Be-BaSsi Key Sath

MajbOoriyoun Kii Baat Chali hAi To Meh Khaa'n
hUm Ney Peya hAi Zehar Bhe AkSar khUshi Key Sath

Chehray Badal Badal Key mUghe Mil Rhay hAin lOg
Itna Bura SalOok Meri Saadgi Key Sath?

Eik Sajda e KhalOos Ki Qemat Fiza e Khuld?
Ya RAAB Na Kar Mazaq Meri BandGi Key Sath

'mOhSin' Karm Lay Bhe Ho Jis Mein KhalOos Bhe
mUgh Ko Ghazab Ka Pyar hAi Us dUshmani Key Sath
Posted 20 Nov 2007

~tasha~ says
Posted 20 Nov 2007

eshajam says
what happened
Posted 20 Nov 2007

eshajam says
thanks
Posted 21 Nov 2007

eshajam says
This heart of mine would surely die
And my body would wither by and by
But my love for you will go on and on.
Yes, it will still be there after I`m gone.

You will feel me on the soft gentle breeze
As you wander through the tall forest trees.
I will be on the beach as the tide comes in
That will remind you how easy my heart was to win.

You will go about your work and play
And remember how you loved me one day.
Love is so strong, the heart is weak.
The tears will flow, the eyes will leak.

No, I never wanted to go away.
But without your love no reason to stay.
Even if you took your love from me
I would forever in your heart be.

The angels will come and sing you a song
They will tell you how I`m getting along.
They will whisper about my love for you
And let you know my heart is being true.

So, if that time should ever come to be
And you say, "I`ll love you again," you will see
The mountains, beaches and meadows will know.
As you shout, "I`m sorry I ever let you go."

Posted 26 Nov 2007

Miss mine says


niceee
Posted 26 Nov 2007

eshajam says
thanks MM
Posted 26 Nov 2007

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